The time has come

I have been putting it off and u think I owed up to it no matter what happens next.

I have a job. I've been working for $9.50 an hour since the 9th of May. My official title is estimator and I work for SH5 Construction Corp.

It's a small and family run company.

The reason why I have such misgivings is that I don't know how good of a job I can do over all.

I didn't even expect to get the job, while only half hoping they liked me enough to hire me.

You are reading this and saying that I've at this for almost a month now. I should know how well I fit in and have a better clue if I can do it or not, and to a point I do. I've sent out a few bids as subs, and I like those. It's the jobs as GC that still scare me. And one is due tomorrow.

I feel like I have so much to do and not enough time.

But I known that when someone takes over for someone who has been doing it for a while and just about everything isn't on paper but in their head it would be a while before the new person feel like they have a grip on things. I can give you that.

But I haven't felt this amount of responsibly or fear over it in a long time. It has been so long that I forgot I could feel like this. I was compleatly sick over it this weekend. I couldn't really eat, and it was just a feeling of terror that I couldn't. Shake for more than a few mins.

Yes, I am starting to like it there, and I'm happy to be a working person again, even if my body is still fighting my new sleeping schedule.

I want to sleep, but I have to get home.


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Rainy Pot - 2013 | concept | Red Dot Award: Design Concept

I can see this in a kid's room or a kindergarten-grade 3 class room.



Rainy Pot - 2013 | concept | Red Dot Award: Design Concept

T is for Tumblr

I have an account. Actually I think I have two. One was just to get me in to see porn, like most people. But then I saw a lot of people over at DA using it to expose their art to other/new people. So I thought of doing this with my fractals.

So now I'm working forward, but form the beginning.The first post I put up, was the first fractal that I posted on DA. Then we/I moved on from there. I just posted my 4th one I think. I'm trying to do one a day. I have 14 pages to go through so I shouldn't catch up with myself for a while.

I've Started Again

I've stared to read through ads and send out my resume again. I'm planing on going to WorkForce 1 for a mass interview on Friday, but even though they say that, I just expect to be sitting in a room filling out forms with about 20 other people at least and not seeing anyone from the companies.

Either way I need to wash my hair and scrub myself down. I haven't left the house in ages and I needed a bath.

I've also looked into starting to sell my photos again. I've officially run out of money. So I'll see about start up funds. I need to sell my stuff in person at showings and perhaps on a nice street some where... either way, I need money to print a few and to frame a few.

I woke up way early today and I made some tuna salad and the can cut my finger. My luck.

Spring is coming and so are sun outages.

Have you gotten an e-mail like this from your cable company?

This is the first time I'm getting one, never mind hearing about it. So I'm sharing.

Oh, if you live in the tri-state area and you have Optimum as your cable/phone/internet company and you haven't gotten this notice, you may need to check your account to make sure they have the right e-mail address for you on file. :)