December 31, 2007


In case you want to know how I ended up here, you have to see where I started.

TEETH tells the story of High school student Dawn (Jess Weixler) works hard at suppressing her budding sexuality by being the local chastity group’s most active participant. Her task is made even more difficult by her bad boy stepbrother Brad’s (John Hensley) increasingly provocative behavior at home. A stranger to her own body, innocent Dawn discovers she has a toothed vagina when she becomes the object of violence.  As she struggles to comprehend her anatomical uniqueness, Dawn experiences both the pitfalls and the power of being a living example of the vagina dentata myth.

If you click on the picture you will be taken to see the trailer.

Well I didn't read this before I went on to watching the trailer, so after seeing the trailer I went back to read this, and came across "vagina dentata myth" and I hadn't a clue what that was.

So I looked it up and I found this.

"Vagina dentata is Latin for toothed vagina. The tale is frequently told as a cautionary tale warning of the dangers of sex with strange women."

The rest of the details can be found at this link.

Vagina Dentata


While I was reading this, I came across the link to the subject line.

OH MY G...!

They have pictures of the "condom". OICH! I'm sure that no one would say that it doesn't work, but there are some flaws with it. Like when are you suppose to wear it? And since it's a bit bigger than a tampon what would this do to down there if you felt that you had to wear it constantly?

If anything, it's a heck of story for a movie. I don't see too many guys going to see this one. Girls enjoy.


Oh, Happy New Year.

December 28, 2007

Big Fish Game Savings

If you are looking for a game or two to download and you would like a deal, Big Fish is having a slight sale.



I have a permanent link over there to the site, but I'm putting on up here for you guys. Wish I had a job, I found a few games there that I would like to have a SN for.

Just click on the pictures to go the site. Look around, find a game that you like and have fun.

Got to go. We are suppose to be eating out today.

See ya.

December 27, 2007

Do you hear something?




That is the current state of my bathroom.

We were sitting here, catching up on Bleach, and my sister asked if I heard something. I got up, went to bathroom to find the tub over flowing and coming out of that thing you drop down to stop the water from going out  so you could have a tub bath. Then the sink got in on the act. Then it started bubbling like I'm at one of those gushing springs.

Jhodie called the super, and it's been about ten mins since we called him, and he hasn't gotten here yet. It stopped at one point, then started again. Now it has stopped again, and is now draining itself out. But what about the floor? I guess that I will be mopping that up later. At least it didn't get to far into the hallway. But we should think about moving to a place of equal rent. I don't want to think about the water damage that is going on here.

This time I have pictures, so if he ever makes it here, he can see what damage is being done if he really cares. But they might come in handy for something else.

My night was going rather well until this.

They showed up. The plumber being completely wasted. I just stood in the hallway while two guys, one being the super and one being a plumber talk among themselves, and did something to that side thing. As far as I can tell it's going to happen again because it's someone above us dumping too much water, like I was trying to tell them.

Now that one of them have gone upstairs to check something, the other one was here to see the water back up again, after they "fixed it". Now they are going to look a bit closer at the pipes. And he said that I was right. It was nice to hear that.

Well I'm off to see what damage they are going to do.



P.S. While trying to have a look at something, they asked for a flat head screw driver. I couldn't find it, so they asked for a butter knife. Then it slipped, and he spent the rest of his time tying up his finger so he could stop bleeding and he said that they are going to send some one by tomorrow. Great. Oh well, did I really think that this was going to be easy? The bathroom is still a mess. It seemed to have even gotten a bit worst. And all that water that was on the floor is now in the floor. By the time they came, the only thing on the floor was the suds.

My Eyes, My brain cells!

Last night when I was surfing around and trying to find some H-manga that didn't go one way, I ended up in a very dark place. Now I'm mentally sick. I couldn't even dream right. There are things out there that just shouldn't be. It's just too far.

On the effort of putting such stuff behind of me, and hoping that it falls into one of the many holes in my head, I got up and cleaned "my" room today. Granted, I mostly did it because my mom was suppose to come by and pick up a few things, but I think I was told that she wasn't coming again. But then, my sister wasn't paying me that much attention to me today.

Lynn called us, and then Jhodie called mom to clear up something that she told her last week before she left. It seems that Lynn's nephew was shot and is in the hospital. She told mom that the guy died. That's not true. He's fine, but it's Lynn's brother that died. I think he was shot too, but I don't know when.

The room looks good, and due to my messed up head, I'm ready to crawl back into bed. I got up at 10 something, and I went to bed after sunrise. I haven't had that much sleep, and I think that had too much fries with honey mustard. Or is it to much honey mustard with my fries? Either which way, I should have stopped, but I was hungry, and now I want to go back to sleep and have a good dream.

What do people have against warning people? Yes, my head still hurts. I can't even watch my "normal" stuff without what I saw being over laid with that stuff. I can't even enjoy the new find of a mass download that I'm getting that should have some missing chapters that I was looking for.

I'm going to have to just stop for a while and just flush all of it out of my system.

Jhodie has already abandoned Nika. As in, yesterday she said that they were going to do this, they were going to get that done, and then some how end up at the library. I got up before both of them and Jhodie is in here on the laptop lol-ing her way though chat, while Nika is in the shower by herself, and it's now 1:35.

I'll get up later and see if I can make myself call up the printer people. Ya, I haven't gotten around to that, but something named Christmas just popped up. I didn't even know that it was Christmas until I was getting IM's. Sunshine's was really early, he sent me his since last week. But I guess he did it while he stilled remembered me.

I'm gong to try and dream of G and the two weeks that I want to spend with him.


December 25, 2007

Jack - Part Two

“Thank you for telling me, but it was not necessity. Jenny would have told me.” I waited for him to walk out the door. He stopped and looked at me.

“What I said means nothing to you?” He asked. He was looking at me again. Why was he looking at me?

“Should it?” I asked.

“Yes.” He said. “It means that we can be together.” I just stared at him. ‘Be together.’?

“I was not aware that you wanted me, never mind me wanting you.” I said, while showing cool stillness, when I was starting to feel odd inside.

“Don’t give me that.” He said. “I know that you want me. You have for the longest time.” He came towards me as I backed up behind the door. “I don’t care what you told me, or what you told anyone else. You’re in love with me.”

“No I'm not.” I said as I looked at him. I had started to tremble. I hope it was not that obvious. “And even if I was, you have not even shown so much as liking me. Leave me alone.” I wanted to leave, but he was blocking me from going anywhere.

“I felt like I had to act that way. I actually do liked you. You were starting to feel too comfortable. It did not feel right. I had Veronica, and when I told you that we were no longer together, you moved to quickly.” He wanted me to understand, but I just felt like crying. “I wanted to give into you. You had always tried to take care of me. That’s why I didn’t say anything, when you had your hands in my hair. I was so close to turning that chair around and taking you into my arms, but I felt that I would be giving up on Veronica too soon. That I did not give her a real chance. I’m sorry.” I felt the tears as they ran down my face. “I'm so sorry, that I was so cold to you afterwards” His voice sounded as if it was cracking. My hands started to hurt with wanting to hold him but I didn’t.

“So aren’t you going to give her another chance now?” I asked, as I wished that he would touch me this time. He just shook his head.

“No, I can’t. The relationship isn't worth saving now. Some thing have just gone too far.” He did not touch me. He just stood there looking like a defeated angel. An angel with curly black hair... SNAP OUT OF IT!

“What do you want from me Jack?” I asked him. He came closer. His hands reached up and took a hold of my shoulders.

“I want the chance that you were offering me, that I was to dumb at the time to take. I want to take you to the beach, like you asked me to when were still friends. I want you.” I couldn’t take it anymore. My hands reached out and pulled his face to mine. I kissed him. He pulled me closer and kissed me back. I started to drown in pure relief. Soon we were on the floor, striping off each other’s clothes.

I had only touched him once before, and this brought back that memory. Cool, soft, delicate, and strong, and that was only his neck. Who knew what the rest of him had to tell me. I reached, I held, and I kissed. He gave more than he got, and I was shivering before we were ready to end. Before we ended up spent and wrapped in each other on my wood floor, I went through four orgasms. Four very long orgasms. He had at lest two. I had stopped counting his when he kicked in my third.

“What do you want to do now?” I asked him. I was looking up at his profile.

“I don’t think that there is anything else left to do.” He told me with a weak grin.

“That’s not what I mean, and you know it.” I said as I snuggled little closer, and his arm tighten a little more.

“I guess that we lay low for awhile. Low but together.” He told me.

“So when are you planning on taking me to the beach?” I asked him.

“Next Sunday.” He said. “Is that fine?” He asked me.

“Yes it is. Thank you.” I told him. “We can’t stay like this anymore.” I told him as I started to get up.

“Does that mean that we are moving this to the bed room?” He asked as he stood up next to me. His hands came out and pulled me to him. “Because I am not ready to leave yet.” He said, just before he kissed me. My hands went to his back and his hands held my hips. I pulled away and looked up into his eyes.

“You can stay on one condition.” I told him.

“And what is that?” He asked.

“That you move your car. We can’t have it out there for everyone to see. Especially since you said that we had to lay low for now.” I told him.

“True.” He said just before he kissed me on my nose. He then looked around for his shirt and paints. He then picked them up from their spewed places. His paints from the other side of the couch and his shirt from on the side table. I buttoned up his shirt then stood back and watched his as he put on his paints and shoes. When he was finished I walked over to him.

“Come back into the house by the side door. I'm going to lock the front door.” I said as I walked him to the door. I stood behind the door as he walked out. I still did not have any cloths on, and I intended to remain that way for a while.

“Jack.” I called after him, just before he took the first steep down.

“Yes?” He asked.

“I'll be in the bed room, and I’m not going to tell you were it is.” I said just before I closed the door on his smiling face.

I hopped over my clothes and shoes and his underwear on my way to the kitchen where I opened the side door for them. Then I went to the bathroom where I took my pill, and washed my mouth. I then went to my bedroom that was at the end of the hall. I opened the door to a fairly descent room. I had cleaned yesterday, so it was clean. The only thing was that my bed was not made. Easily fixed. I walked over and pulled the top covers off. I then dusted off my bed and fluffed the pillows. I folded the cover spreads in half and laid them across the foot of my bed. I ruffled through my draw until I found a purple scarf and hung it over the lamp shade. I looked at it and changed my mind and threw it back into my draw. I opened the windows to let some air in but I closed the blinds to have room a little darker, than the 4:30 that it was out side.

I was looking over what I had done when I got an idea. I looked for one of my sticky note pads and a pen. I then scribbled unto it hoping that I spelt everything right. NO CLOTHES ARE ALLOWED BEYOND THIS POINT. I then stuck it to the outside of the door, as I heard him entering the kitchen. I then went back into the room and closed the door quietly behind of me. I then got a chair placed it at the foot of my bed with its back towards the door and straddled it. I ran my fingers through my hair a few times when I heard him coming down the hall. I heard three doors open and close. Then I heard him as he stopped in front of my door. At first I heard nothing, then I heard his shoes as they hit the floor. I expected him to walk through that door any second. Instead I heard him knocking.


The second part didn't have that much to clean up. Guess I did do something after all when I "fixed" them up 5 or so years ago.

Still looking for comments, different point of view or ideas for other stories.

December 24, 2007

Jack - Part One

I was walking up the hill on which my house sat, in the afternoon sun, when I heard a car screech to a halt behind of me as I turned off the main road and into my driveway. I turned around to see Jack’s car. It was a car that you would not have had a hard time recognizing. It looked like something that Germany would be proud of, if it was not colored neon purple. What was he doing here? I just come from my sister’s, and she said that they, Jack and Veronica, were in the middle of a fight. She said, that he told her that he was not going to see her for a week. My sister had predicted three days, till he came back to her. I disagreed and gave him two.

I had always liked him, but now that I knew that he was no longer attached, he seemed way more interesting. I came into work that day to hear him on the phone, talking to one of his friends. He was saying something about him not dealing with his break up with Veronica and downing shots of tequila until he was surprised that he could stand. I was sorry and frighten for him. I did not like the idea of him getting drunk and getting into an accident or worst. A few days later he seemed worst if that was possible. At one point when he had his head in his hands, and looked like he could go no further, and the fact that the computer refused to work with him, did not help. I got up from where I was and walked over to him and I combed my fingers though his hair. What possessed me to do that? I cringe everything it passes though my head. At the time I so happy with myself when I thought that he had actually winded down a bit.

Then, the very next day, I find out that they were still together and that I was fried, there was a very delayed reaction. Don't touch your boss even if you think you are just about his step sister-in-law. They thought that I was in love with him. I ofcourse denied it when she asked me if I was. I was not in love with him. Granted I liked the guy. Given some time and him remaining single, it might have happened, but not now. He had shown himself to be somewhat of a coward, when he sent the message of me not having to come in to work the next day through Veronica. Especially since he was in the next room. I take that back. He is a coward.

So what was he doing here?

I was standing in the middle of my driveway looking at him as he climbed out of his car, and walked towards my gate.

"Hi, Jill.” He said as he waved his shades in my direction just before he put them on.

"Hi Jack and it's Jillian.” I said as I walked over to him. We stood there facing each other, with the gate separating us. I know that I should let him in, but he did not make me want to.

“Come inside Jack.” I said as I opened the gate to let him in. He walked up the steps and waited for me to come and open the door. When I had gotten it opened he let me go in first, then closed it after he got inside. I stood half way across the room from him.

"Is there something that you wanted to talk to me about?” I asked him. He took off his glasses and placed them in the front pocket of his shirt. I was giving off clear signals that I did not want him here. Never mind talk to him. He then looked as if he was trying to concentrate on what he had to say to me. If my heart did not hurt when I looked at him, he would not have had this chance to talk to me, but if he did not say anything soon I’ll tell him that I had somewhere to go and that he had to leave.

His time was ticking away. I was about to look at the clock that hung above his head when I saw him taking something from his back pocket.

“I came by to give this back to you.” From his outstretched hand I saw a yellow piece of paper.

“Thank you.” I said as I took it from him. I did not even unfold it. It was a note that was attached to a poem that I had written years ago for an old boyfriend. It was suppose to help him sleep. He had said that he had lousy nights, so I gave it to him. I dropped it on the table next to me. I then turned back to look at him.

"Yes.” He said.

“What?” I asked him.

“Yes. It worked.” He told me. “Remember. You asked me to tell you if it worked. Well it did. Thanks.” He said. He was looking at me. He had never looked at me. Talked to me while looking some where else, yes. Looked up to see who it was, then went back to what he was doing, yes, but he never looked at me.

“You’re welcome.” I told him. “What are you really doing here?” I asked him. I was looking at him, but his gaze had shifted to my sofa, where he was scraping something off it. “Jack, answer me.” I told him. He looked up at me, then back to my sofa.

“Leave Jack.” I told him as I started to walk pass him and over to the door. As I passed him, he grabbed my arm. I turned cold, and my breathing froze.

“I wanted to talk to you.” He said. “I'm leaving Veronica.” One simple sentience.

“Let go of me Jack.” I told him as I pulled on my arm. I had not looked at him. It seems as if it took a few minutes for my request to reach him. I felt him looking at me, then I felt as he let my arm fall from his hand. I then continued to walk over to the door. I stood in front of the door and thought about what I was doing. I opened the door and looked at him.

"You still want me to leave?” He asked as he came closer to me, and I also hoped, the door.



There is the first part. Any comments?? "Yes I'm re-writing my old stories. Some are long and in parts."

December 23, 2007


I failed to mention that these aren't for kids. The links in the last post. Heck, I'm sure some adults don't what to know that these things are out there, but then most of them never got past "the normal" stuff after being married for what?.. 7 years? Not that they are that tame, they do have a edge all their own. So be prepared for almost anything.

So consider a few things. Some are odd, some are "wrong", but they are just stories. Just like how people have fantasies, but nothing comes of them.

So call me a pervert. I'm very normal, and even a bit sex deprived sadly. But once I see G next year, I'll put an end to that one way or another.

This afternoon I took Nika down to a mall that I didn't even know was there until we got to the end of the B41 bus route. Today was a nice warm day considering how cold it's been, and on the way back we got poured on. I forgot the part about rain later in the day, but I don't think that we got that wet down.

Nika got to eat, while I watched over her and waited for her to finish. There weren't any free tables or chairs, so she sat on the carpet next to some chairs, hence the watching over part.

Now I'm going to make something to eat. Bye.

It's Not My Page That Is Down.

site down

I just went to check out my e-snips page to see how many people showed up to get a download or just swung by, but I couldn't get to my page, and I thought that "Oh NO! I've been ripped from the site." I then went to the main home page to see what was going on, and I see this. Check the picture to your left.

It's them, it's not me, it's them.

So check back in about a week. I don't think that they would down longer than that considering I don't know how long they have already been down.

If you wanted to get to my hentai site while they are down, here's the link to the down load pages.


#1 5 zip files
#2 9 zip files
#3 7 zip files
#4 9 zip files
#5 8 zip files
#6 8 zip files
#7 7 zip files
#8 8 zip files
#9 6 zip files
#10 6 zip files
#11 9 zip files


It's not fun not having anything to say because you are afraid to go outside because of how cold it's getting, and you don't have a job to drag you out there, that you speak bad about later while you drink some ginger garlic tea so you could do it again tomorrow.

*Spinning around in the chair.* (if I had a chair to spin in). Do you remember when I said how I was starting to not want to work the more I was out of work? Ya, I'm getting there again. It's a little morally depressing. But I do try to have some house work done before my mom gets back from work once I wake up before she gets home. A few times she has walked in to see starting to wash the dishes. I like it better when she gets home and I've made the bed, washed the dishes, cleaned up the kitchen, and had something done for dinner. But most of the time when I'm thinking of doing dinner, she calls to ask what I'm making and I can get her to bring something home for it, or to get some to go with the meal like already cooked chicken. So she can eat as soon she gets home.

Currently my hair is a pure wreck. I've eaten things that I shouldn't have just because I didn't really think of cooking today and spoiled something that I was good for me because I left it out of the fridge too long when I was defrosting it. I watched a few things on the computer an got a few more hentai manga for uploading to my esnips site. The link is over there. I have to sort and zip and make a cover page and such. I have a mother board that looks like it doesn't want to get updated, and the fax line/connection that we have isn't working and I'm suppose to call the phone company for some help on that one then if it's not the phone line, then I'm calling the maker of the printer. I'm sure that I will be calling the printer people.

Then I almost fell into dept to the tune of about $2500. I didn't really expect anything to happen, and I was treating it as something to just fill time and treat as a joke, but then I thought that it might be real at one point. It was for one of those mystery shopper jobs. I expected to be asked for a fee, and I would say forget it. I expected them to send me to some site that I would have to sign up with, I expected a few ways this would end. If you aren't asking me to sign something saying that I worked for you and getting my SSN for taxes, it wasn't real. But they said that I was on their list, and I was in group 5 and my first job would be to go to a wal-mart an a money gram place and evaluate them and they have sent me everything that I would need to do these two jobs in a fed-ex package. Ok... I thought and waited for the package. Incase it was real, I looked up two places to go. The closest wal-mart was in NJ.

I got the stuff very late in the day... and it was way lighter than I expected, and nothing in there was what I expected. I had a paper that didn't look like I should have gotten it, and three money orders each being $830. Ok.. what gives. I sent them an e-mail telling them what I got, and asked what gives mostly, but in a very nice way.  I got something back from them saying that the paper was a mistake, here was what I was suppose to do, but the money orders where right. It seems that I was suppose to cash them at my bank, take $50 for transportation. $100 to spend at wal-mart, $200 was my pay, and they rest was suppose to sent back to them because it had to be over $2,000 for whatever reason to help evaluate the money gram place. Everyone but me was a bit more worried about the last part. But I did write them back saying that if the money orders were cleared by my bank I would have it all done by 2pm the next day. From the time I got the package I was given 48 hours to get the evaluations completed and sent back via e-mail. 

By that night everyone was really worried about it and I saw that something was up with the addresses. One, the address was different on the money orders, then what was on the fed-ex package, and the place I was sending it too. The money orders were from a bank in TX, the place that I would be sending the $2000+ via money gram was also in TX, but they came from NJ. So I called up the phone number on the money order to the bank in TX. If anyone would be able to tell me if they were real or not, it would be the place that they supposedly came from. I called too late, so I called them first thing the next day. I had to call them back a second time because the first e-mail address that I got didn't work. I was sending them scanned copies of the money order for them to look over, but this was just to make really sure, because during the first call, I was told that they weren't any good after we realized that there wasn't a date on any of them. It said void after 90 days, but there wasn't a date to count from. I got back an answer in like 2 hours or so, I don't remember, but they weren't any good and the matter was sent down to their fraud department. I sent them back another e-mail saying that I found this this place, and there they were looking for people all over NY, and that they will be getting more of the same soon.

Then a day later, the people who sent me money orders e-mailed me asking about my evaluations. I told them that the bank didn't clear the money orders and that they sad that this was a scam, and that this was the end of my dealings with them.

I could have used that money, but that is what they are working on when they send this stuff to you. Next thing you know, in a month's time, the bank will come looking for you to pay back the money when the bank the money orders came from said that they weren't real.

Oh, my mom is on vacation. Ya, nothing great there, except I can look at porn sites without looking over at my shoulder to make sure that she is still asleep. While she is gone it would be nice to find a job, but I'm not holding my breath, but I do have to try to get the fax service to work again. My sister was trying to send papers to the phone people about her stolen cell so she could get it replaced, but the fax only worked the first two times, and when we tried to send the papers back again with additional information they wouldn't go. I spent 4 days trying to send them, but it was always an incomplete call and nothing was sent.  So I have to try and get that fixed before she comes home.

Other than that, I think that I might start re-writing my old stories. When I was looking for work, I saw that some people were looking for new stories and I know that my stuff needs to be re-done badly. So I may start that this week while I have so much freedom.

Well, that's about it.

Have a better Christmas than me if I don't get to say merry christmas to you before the day shows up. :)

December 11, 2007

Mimobot - Designer USB Flash Drives by Mimoco


mimobot Designer USB Flash Drives by mimoco | welcome to planet blõôh!

I'm sharing.

I found this site like 20 mins, about two hours now, ago. I went to check out my deviantart account, since I haven't been paying it that much attention and I'm thinking of making some things again, along with writing some new stories, of not fix some of my old ones.

Either which way, I saw this on the side and went to have a look. They looked so cool, and why not have a USB drive look like something that matches you? They have quite a few there, and they have previews of others that you can preorder.

I picked this one. It's cute. The name sounds like it's a machine, but it looks like a flower on the front. At least to me it does. You can get them in a number of gig sizes. I picked the highest at 4 gigs and it came up to $110. Oh, you get this little baggie clip on thing that they call a Protohoodie.

Gigglebyte  Gigglebyte with hoddie

This is a cute little thing for gift.


As for my day, not as nice as the USB drive.

One, I had a nice sleep, and woke up after 2pm, or just about 2pm. I was suppose to go out and put the money on my bank account so I could pay the cell bill. Mom gave me the $100 to pay on the bill. I was suppose to do it yesterday, but I didn't go out. Today I made myself leave and I took Nika with me since I couldn't leave her alone. It's a good thing that the bank was close by. It was cold out. (Oh, the sleep was the only thing good.)

So cold out that by the time I got to the bank a mere 3 blocks away, my nose was hurting and started to leak. I was able to get it deposited so I could pay with it tonight. Then I walked up the subway and put $10 on my metro card. Mom gave me $20 but I held on to $10 incase I needed it for something.

Then on the way down the street, miss Nika said that she's hungry. She had a whole slice of pizza before we left the house. It gave me a reason to stop into this place that I've been wanting to go into for a while and see how much their meals cost. It wasn't so bad. I just couldn't eat anything of it. Before I left the house, my tooth started to hurt, by the time I got the eatery, I was saddened that I couldn't eat any thing, not even one of the soups. The chicken noodle looked good and it was only $3 for a small, which seems like a nice size.

But miss Nika didn't want any soup, and just chicken. I didn't really have the money to buy the soup, never mind the chicken. The chicken didn't come by itself either. If I wanted just chicken, I would have to buy a whole bowl for about $6 or so to get any.

We walked down to the next block and got some cubes for seasoning. Jhodie was complaining that she didn't have any, but when I got home I found one of the two that I bought in the cupboard. On well. We got home and I made some noodle soup, which Nika ate some of. Most of the time I was just waking her up. She didn't even try to come in here and when I was going to get her to come in the room to start her homework, Ms Brown came home and then Phillys' friend showed up for her I-Pod and is now currently copying over some songs to the I-Pod even after I added the music that I ripped for her. Two CDs and one song from another cd.

I left Phillys there to help her with the moving of files while I gave Nika her shower. The drain isn't working that well and is constantly backing up, so no more bath tub baths for her until it's fixed.

Now I'm back here.

Well, see ya. I would like to at least start something before I have to leave. Mom doesn't want me disturbing Ms. Brown while she is sleeping. 



PS. I'll be adding the link to the side.

December 08, 2007

Friday and Saturday.

I did what I do every Friday night. I watched Flash Gordon and StarGate Atlantis on tv.

Tomorrow(today) will be different. My mom is taking me to church. More like making me go to church, but since she hasn't made any real fuss for me to go to church every week, I'm not going to make a fuss about. Besides, she said that people there have been asking for me. After they see I don't remember them, I guess that would be an end to that.

I do feel a bit bad though. There was a guy and girl there that I used to hang out with every Saturday. But I don't remember anything about them anymore.

Today (Friday) I gave blood and got my birth control  shot. Both arms hurt. This time after I gave blood I felt bad. I think that I was hungry. I didn't have much to eat for breakfast, and the cold took something out of me also I'm sure. I woke sometime around 9:10pm and I've been out since sometime around 3:30 or so. Maybe 4:30. I wasn't paying that much attention. Now I'm hungry again.


This little thing was taken out of an e-mail I sent Tanzie who is living over Seattle now. She wants me to go there. I think I said that already.


Well, today wasn't so bad. I remembered a whole bunch of stuff of that I forgot about the SDA. The ushers for one, and I think they painted the place. I don't remember the walls being white. But the glass as still there, along with the two gold  angels on either side. The singing is just as bad. A few of them I just couldn't bring myself to sing along with. It doesn't feel like I ever used the bathroom until that day. Which I know isn't true, but before we left the apartment today, I told mom that I don't remember where the bathroom was. It was on the first floor, and it looked like it was very recently remodeled. The whole thing looked very new. I ofcourse was falling asleep, but it was sooner then normal I think. That was because I didn't really get any sleep last night. I tried to go to bed at 1am, but I just couldn't fall asleep. I didn't even start yawning until 3:30am, and an hour later I turned of the tv because Phillys was not asleep and tried to go so to sleep again.

But I don't think that I showed it too much. I used my bathroom break to also get some water to help wake me up. But as soon as I sat down upstairs again, I started to yawn. I half think that my body was working against me since I was trying so hard to stay awake. I stood up for every song and prayer and at the time I heard just about everything the pastor was saying. I just couldn't remember when it came time to leave. I almost stayed to eat, but the place looked like it was going to be full, and I remembered that I couldn't really eat much there, and I wanted to lay down and get some real sleep. Oh, I might have taken a while to fall asleep since I was on the couch. I don't sleep well there.

Well I came home and I checked my mail, and answered one of Tanzie's letters, but when I started the next one, Jhodie came home, and I just tuned off the monitor and went to bed. One I was tired, and two, the second e-mail didn't need a response from me, and I needed to get some sleep.

My sister is hurting my head. I'm up now because she has constantly woken me up to help her look for something. I finally got up, walked over to the printer and picked it up and she took it from be before I can really look at it to make sure it was what she was asking for. Then she just walked off and left me. Fine. I went and got something to eat, washed 3 or so dishes, and gave the cat her wet food for dinner. I then came back in here, watched some tv while I ate, then I came back to e-mail that I had from Tanzie and started this blog. Now my sister has printed out a form that she was suppose to fill out and fax, and she gave it to me to fill out. I told her that it won't look right with two different hand writings on it. So she told me just fill in the numbers. I told her to take it with her. She went to the laundromat, and after she as packed them in the washer, she has like 25 mins of waiting for them to finish. She could fill it out herself. I just want to lay back down in bed.

I have nothing to do on the computer, and I can still feel the sleep in me and I'm still yawning.

I'm done.

See ya.

December 06, 2007

Tonight Was Phone Issue Night.

I had it a bit better than Jhodie.

I just had a small synching problem with my computer. It had issues seeing my phone and letting me back up my contacts. Then when I thought that I messed up the software that I was using to do the backup of my contact list, I then tried to find it again. I didn't find. I found something else thinking that I thought might be better, but I just found software that updated the software on my phone instead. When I realized that, I tried to use the other software one more time to save my stuff that I put on there that I didn't have a copy of.

And on my last try at this, it worked. But it was only partly the synching software that was having issues. The computer had to reinstall the drivers for my phone. I wonder how those got uninstalled? So I got that going, and I backed up everything. Then I tried the software update thing for my phone. But it didn't update, which I was half happy about. On one hand, I wanted to see what new things they came up with for my "dated" phone. Then on the other hand I was happy that nothing was changed. Ya, I'm half chicken.

But now everything is ok, and my phone is deemed up to date, and my synching software is a-ok again. :)

Now I get to share, or at least try to share. I have a few wallpapers that I feel like sharing. They are perfectly sized for your Razr v3x or a flavor of that model. So it won't be pulled out at the sides when you use it on your phone like some smaller wallpapers that I've seen.


And this is the one that I'm currently using.



Now the bad news.

It's Jhodie's phone. A kid at work stole it at closing time. She was very upset. I was very upset. She asked me if I what to show up tomorrow to see the brat and watch him get fried. Do I get to hit him too? Actually I want to press charges. At least jail him for a few days. It's out right theft! We are hoping that he doesn't sell it between now and tomorrow so we could get it back. In the mean time, she turned off service to the phone that incase we/she did get it back there won't be a huge bill of long distance charges on there.

Guess I have to look for that extra fare anyway.

Well night.

Quote of the Day:
Dishonesty, cowardice and duplicity are never impulsive.
--George A. Knight

**Wow. The quote fit the night for Jhodie. **

December 05, 2007

This is what I wanted to look like....

and I think I look like at times. Just add darker skin. :) The smaller wasit, the even skin tone, the cute but full face. My arms without flab. The buxom look.

tempted by *ladylionink on deviantART

I found this as I try to track down some new wallpaper. Which just reminded me. I have some girl wallpaper on my computer already.

Oh well. :) :)

So Scared of the Cold I missed my interview.

I got there too late for the interview and I offered to stay, but they said that there wasn't anytime after they saw the other people that came for an interview also.

I keep thinking that it's just me going for interviews some times. Oh well. I tried to call them to let them know that I was going to be late, but the number they called me from, I couldn't call them on. It said that it was a non-working number of the tech university. But I went anyway, and got frozen. It was cold and windy. To make it worth coming out since I was almost out of money I tried to get my blood donation date changed to then since it was close by and get it over with, but they were closed. I then went over to the women's clinic and asked them a few things. I got both done and answered. Then I decided to go by the salvation arm to ask them why they never called me for the part time job at their store. But I just missed the HR person by like 3 min's. I think she drove past me as I was crossing the street. My luck. Then I walked like a mile or so. It seemed really far because of the cold, but it wouldn't have been that bad in the summer or spring time.

Also I walked down to Franklin Av from Long Island University so I could use my transfer and save my other $2 for when I go to give blood on Thursday. But lucky me, when I got home the blood place called me to remind me about the appointment, and I got them to change it to the same day as my doctor's appointment so I would go and give blood first, then walk down to the street for the other one and I wouldn't have to come back out and find fare for two days. Cool. The only thing that went my way today really.

I'm late in posting my wallpapers for my club, so I'm off to do that, and for the next few days, I'll be practicing my touch typing. That was something else that might have worked against me at the interview. You had to type at least 45 wpm. And I know I can, I just haven't tried in ages. I got up to 42 the night before. I need to practice. So I'll do that for a while for the next time.

Quote of the Day:
Do first what you dread the most.

December 03, 2007

Wasting Time Badly.

Today that is. Yesterday I cleaned up and washed dishes, cleaned up the kitchen and even half cooked. There was left over rice from the day before so I just heated/fried it up with some veggies and Jhodie them got some chicken to go with it. The day before I had made spinach rice with steamed fish.

Today I watched last week's Hero's ep so I would be up to-date so I can watch the new one that is coming on tonight. I jumped over the parts that had to do with Sylar. The guy creeps me out!

Anyway, other then that, I just took my pills and answered my phone and slept. I just really woke up. The phone call was from a university. I found a add for a part time IT Lab Tech of a university over on Jay Street. I answered it over the weekend, and they called me just before I went back in bed. I really woke up to check my e-mail to see if they wrote me back. There wasn't one because they planed on calling me. They would have been fine with me showing up today, but I put it off until tomorrow because I was hopping to get some washing done when my mom came home from work. But she just let me sleep and didn't do any washing at all. I'm going to have to get the money from her to do it myself tomorrow.

The interview is tomorrow at 3pm, and before that I'm going over to the women's health center so I can see about getting my shot. I'm sure they are going to tell me something that I don't really want to hear. I almost didn't go back thinking that it was time that I stopped using it, but I the more I thought about it, the more I thought that it was a bad idea. I don't want to have to work and to deal with the pain and blood. I just don't want to. If I could take out my uterus I would. Also, my insurance kicks in this month.

Jhodie wanted me to go out earlier, but I wasn't awake enough to want to. I got off the computer and told her to come watch Bleach while I went back to bed. I woke up like an hour and a half ago, 4:30pm, and told her that I would take a shower and go outside. But she was already getting dressed to go out. Great. I went and had "breakfast".

Now I'm awake and Jhodie is out and mom is asleep. I look down next to the computer and I see that she had something to eat. Great. I don't have to worry about cooking for her then. I'll just have some soup later.

Now I'm blogging just to keep blogging and looking for something to watch on tv. Oh, speaking of tv, I missed an anime that I haven't seen yet. Showed up just in time to see the credits rolling by and to see it say, "You have just seen Howl's Moving Castle." I sat there and waited to see when it will be coming back on. It didn't. Why didn't it? It was the start of the month. Not again. Just a one time showing like the french version of Beauty and the Beast that was from back in 1945 or something like that. So I went on line and looked up the channel to see if it really wasn't coming back on again. Well it was half true. It wasn't coming back on, on that channel again, but it was coming on again on another channel for only one day, with three showings. I so put in a reminder for the second showing. It's so hard to see a good anime movie on tv these days. Normally if I don't get to see it the first time by chance, I don't get to see it at all.

Oh, I just remembered something. The other day I was thinking about this site that I had posted some files on and I tried to track it down, to not find it, and to find out that I had already book marked it. Then when I logged in I see how it has been doing, I see this notice up on my page. I have two folders marked for deletion due to them containing copyrighted material. So I'm trying to save the files since I don't have them with me now, and then I'm going to find a way to make links since some people will come back there to get them again and to see If I've updated. I even found some others that I want to post. I don't want to link to where I got them because of the pop ups and how they have them laid out on their site. One of the sites I found is ok and is done well, but this other one isn't at great. So I may link to one and do my own posts for the ones that came from the other site.

Well mom work up. She will be wanting the computer soon. She also got me a chicken roti. :)


December 01, 2007

Just A Little Note Before I go To Bed.

Ya, I know it's abit late, but I helped my mom bake a few things and it threw off my sleep a bit.

Either which way, waited for a call back from this interview I went on with Jhodie, but they didn't call us back. I thought that they might pick one of us. On the next set of maybe jobs. I'm going to re-apply to Target, and Pathmark. Don't know why Pathmark would take me now when I already applied to them before.

I have packed up everything that we baked. Coconut patties, veggie patties, pineapple patties, carrot cake and sweet potato pudding. The zucchini bread and the cassava pone didn't come out well enough to sell. 

I'm yawning, and Tanzi was in the hospital yesterday. Lack of iron in her blood. Yep it got that bad. I don't have much details since she could only type with one hand and was tried when you was typing. In a few days I'll find out how she got the hospital. She's trying to get me to go out west to hang out with her and to work and crash on her couch. How much harder or easier would it be for me to get a job over there? Either which way I don't think that I can run off yet and leave my mom.

Even if she still wants me to go to church and it taking me next Saturday. Not looking forward to it. Maybe it won't be too bad. But I know that when people start asking me if I remember them and I say no, someone is going to end up feeling hurt.

My mom did let me buy a DVD -+ R DL burner for the desktop. It is said to be here come Tuesday. YA! I get to tinker. It was a rather darn good price. It was like $20, and I got it from Tigerdirect and it was made by Samsung. See, not a no name brand thing. I was going to give you the link, but they have all sold out. Sorry.

Oh, I'll be putting up a few things for free and for sale on Craigslist. Nothing major. Just a few things that I found when I turned the bed around and moved a few things. One cassette-tape-radio-clock, that I think I'll ask for about $5 for. Then there is the cat perch thing that you hang more or less next to your window-sill . That's for about $5 too. Our cat didn't take to it. It would rather sleep on my feet when I'm in bed than on it. The one thing that I have to give away or try to give away, is a Direct TV cable box. Don't know why it wasn't just sent back, but if someone wants it they can come and get it. I'm just trying not to toss it since I was told it works fine.

And now to use a plug-in that I got for this blog writer.

Night, or morning as it seems to be 4:14am on my side of the world.

Quote of the Day:
Ninety-nine percent of the failures come from people who have the habit of making excuses.
--Dr. George Washington Carver