May 29, 2017

What is sad?

By being in a bar on your lunch hour drinking water. ... in Applebee's really, but sitting at the bar no less because they are so full.

Well maybe not that sad, but I'm starting to burn out.

A pic somewhere in this post shows how many days and hours I have been working straight. The next pic shows that my eighth day was taken away, and I now have a three day break.

If I can make it there. I felt tired yesterday day, but today is so much worst. It's memorial day and the weather is bad. Cold and raining. I had to ask security to give me a lift from the bus stop to the building so I could get to work on time and dry because I didn't want to turn back to get my umbrella and the upside to that, is that I caught the bus almost right away.

I actually looked at the line today, outside the fitting room. It cut right through the men's department. So long. We need more rooms. But to get more, we would have to buy the space next door and remodel. 😁


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May 28, 2017

I got a bus

Yesterday, I had to give in and get an uber to get to work on time.

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May 27, 2017

There is a festival in the park

It 10:40 and I'm waiting for the bust to take me 3 long blocks to give my feet a short rest before climbing the hill home. My feet hurt so much and it's just the second day of my 8 day run. (See next for photo of upcoming shifts.)

I asked about them and she said that I shouldn't have that many days in a row. But I don't really expect it to change. I expect to get a call from on ny second to last day telling me not to come in the next day because I would go over 40 hours.

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May 23, 2017


My egg sandwich. Not. I wanted to give them a chance and nit just think right away that they couldn't do it, but in the end they didn't.

I said that I wanted and egg sandwich without cheese and without butter with home fries. Just explaining home fries was something I didn't expect in any degree.

Right after me someone else showed up to what on the inside looked like some kind of remote outpost, and I think he ordered his usual. The "chef" at the time was making another order for someone. I'm not sure who. It looked like cream of wheat to me, but now thinking back and the fact that she placed eggs and bacon on it has me believing it was grits. I think I tried them once and that was more than enough for me. Porridge is much better.

Well, I can see how my order was mixed up, but I said it twice to make sure since I didn't think I had any lactose pills on me. No cheese, no butter, no bacon. Egg sandwich with lettuce and tomato with home fries.

But really, I knew I was in trouble when she asked if I waned a roll or wheat bread, which was slice bread, like toast. I got the wheat toss because I knew it was better for me than the roll.

The egg was put in a container, the home fries next to it and the toast was buttered. I didn't see it being buttered, I tasted it when I got to work and tried to take a bite

They handed it me and the toast was by itself outside the container wrapped in waxed paper. I was puzzled. Laughed even before taking it out to out in the container where upon I realize I didn't get a sandwich and there was no lettuce and tomato. For that I had to pay 50 cents more.

So as they are putting these things in the container, I look up to see my bus going by. So I didn't try to get a good taste until I got to work and I spit that out into the trash when I tasted and felt cold butter in my mouth.

Ok, phone is dying. Later.

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Radio silence


I didn't mean to go dark for so long. I told you about the blackout last week right?

After that I haven't even turned on my computer. I have only been on my iPad and this aging phone of mine.

Today I got to work late because I wanted breakfast. I'm not  even talking about sitting in my home and eating some good oatmeal. Nope. I wanted an egg sandwich with home fries. I didn't even know I wanted the home fries until I got to the bus stop for the 24B in Elizabeth. Then as I'm watching them cut the tomato for my eggs, I look up to see my bus go buy. Then I had wait 40 mins for the next one to show up. And what did it do? Take a different way to work. So much so that all of us at the bus stop had to run to the other one to catch it. Then it just sat there for some reason.

By the time it hit about 15 till I called work to tell them that I was being held hostage on a bus that was an hour late and that I was going to be about 5-10 mins late. I ended up walking in about 15 past and I'm in the fitting room again.

My boss loves me in there. He said as much today.

Well I had my hour lunch at Applebee's, my usual, now I'm heading back. I'll rant about my eggs later.


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May 19, 2017

Got this too

From the Gap. Now headed home wearing it. I sweated so much in the other top.

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Shoe shopping

Shopping for shoes worked ended at 4 today for me. It might be their way if giving me a break before4 days of 9 hour shifts back to back. I'll take it.

I think I'll take this one.

Now for some closed toes options. 😊

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May 16, 2017


I have the whole bus to myself. 😁 I got the express. It was right behind a 24B.

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May 13, 2017

Celebrating Early

Part of my training is to actually ring up customers, today, on a rainy day, on Mother's Day weekend.

Amazingly it's not that bad. It's a little annoying to log back into the system after every transaction, but that is just how it is.

I've learned to ask them for their coupon before anything so it's in my head to scan it before I hit total, if they have one.

I have to learn how to fold better, faster, and to split big purchases better among the bags. I know two went out a bit heavy, but it's how I adjust my own bags after other people pack them lightly.

So, the celebrating part. I'm at Applebee's.  I just gave my order, and it's 12:25 already. I have to be back at 1:10. I think. Maybe I should change that to 1:05 to be very safe.

Now I'm thinking of getting something to go. If so, I can just get it after I work since I get off at 5. I'll see.

I forgot to ask for lettuce and tomato.


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There is rain

I'm awake, dressed and in the back of an Uber on my way to work.

Did I tell you that my 8 am shift was for register training? We just had to turn back because I forgot my glasses. My sister ordered the Uber for me as I was finishing up. As I was quickly grabbing things to leave, I knew I was forgetting something. And today of all days I needed them.

Almost there. It's almost a laugh how fast I can get here by car vs. the bus.


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May 12, 2017

I clothes shopped and it cost me $81!

Lucky me, I saw the other price of $162 before it adjusted for my employee's discount, or I would have put something back.

I haven't spent that much on clothes in one go, since my mom insisted that I needed new clothes for school when I was 17. I normally buy one item now, another one later if not two and then I get something again next week.

The only reason why I bout so much today is because I do need some new stuff for work, and the only reason I got so much today is because all of the women department was 50% off for Mothers Day, and we get a 50% employee's discount. So yeah.

And all that shopping and trying on stuff, along with check out took an hour after I already stayed till 5pm, so the guy who was there wouldn't be on his own for 30 mins.

I'm now on the 24B headed home, so I can eat the sorbet that I bought Wednesday.

Oh, I have to be at work at 8 am tomorrow so I can be trained on the register. I dread and look forward to it at the same time.

I know I won't go to sleep early enough tonight to catch the bus to be there that early. Tho is one of the reasons why we have Uber. 😊


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Long day and not because of work.

Yesterday was my day off. But I had an appointment with charity care to help pay for my trip to the emergency room and may my new primary doctor who is also from the same hospital.

The appointment was for 11 am, but the day I bet on the bus just showing up when I get to the bus stop, didn't happen.  So I didn't get a bus until about 30 mins later.

Then I get there and I tried to recall the lady 's Nam who I was to meet with. Of course I got it wrong. But I got it so wrong that they sent me to another building. When I got there and told them everything, they said that I didn't even have to give a man. Just tell them that I had an appointment with charity care.

So that is what I did. And they didn't recognize me. They same lady that sent me to the other place told me I was late. I was there 10 mins earlier.

Anyway, I had everything but the printout for my Paycard. I ran out of time to go back yesterday, so I dropped it off this morning at 8:30.

Hence the start of my day.

Later. My break is up.

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May 08, 2017

I own one!

I have now paid for, and own my own monthly bus pass for Two zones. I should have bought it at the start of the month, but my last pay went mostly to covering rent and a credit card payment.

The pass cost me $78. It sounds like a lot, but if I bus bought two zones ticked it adds up fast and i will still have to pay a $1 for transfers. Now I done have to worry about any of that. I can flash this and get on any bus I need to. 😊

It's 15 till 10pm and on the 39 headed home now. I worked almost 30 mins past the end of my shift. I was told to take care of some put backs from the fitting room so I finished that up before looking for a manager so I could leave.

Had to wait a while to catch a bus because as I was walking to the bus stop I saw the 24B leave. That left me catching the next one which was the 24A. By the time I got to town it was 9.

I hate getting home this late to wake up for a 10am shift. And that is what I have tomorrow. 10am till 7pm.


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:breathe out:

Over all my day is going well, which might be why Robin came and asked me for a favor. She said that I could turn it down, but for some reason I didn't.

The favor? A fellow associate of mine isn't coming to work that well dressed and she gave me the compliment that I always am dressed well. So she thought that it would be better to have another associate talk to her rather than management.

So I go to see who she wants me to talk to since I am still learning names. She tells me that she in men shop 3 wearing a floral dress. And the one person that I didn't  want it to be, is who it turned out to be. My luck. I get along with her. In fact I think I get well with everyone.

So I have to have this chat with her, and it's not going to be as easy as I thought it was. Not that I thought it was going to be very easy to start with. I'm about to clock back in an see if I can start something before going back to my shop.

Oh, the shop thing. I don't thing i ever got around to explaining that yet.

Well we have departments. Women, Men, and Children. The woman and men departments are cut up into 3 sections or "Shops" and one or two or three people could be assigned to a shop depending on how big is.

On one hand we aren't supposed to leave our shop or at least no longer than it would take to drop off something in another department /shop. But on the other hand you can be moved from shop to shop to shop for most of the day.

Ok. Later.

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May 07, 2017

Worked till midnight

As you can see, I was given the shift hours of 5 till 11pm. The store closed at 9, so I already knew I wasn't going home at 11. It's just a given.

I left at midnight. And about 20 mins later I got the 24A home. I'm sure that was the last bus leaving the mall.

As I sat on that bus I wished that the driver would turn off the lights, but I know it wasn't happening. I got home about 1:10 which isn't bad since I took my time walking up from the bus stop. I almost gave up a dollar for a transfer so I could take the 107 or 37, up to Elizabeth Ave.

But before I did, as I was getting ready to get off the bus, I realized that I didn't know if the other buses were still running. And by the time I reached Elizabeth Ave on my own, no buses had passed me.

The day started off pretty well. I rubbed my foot through the pain from just touching it and it helped. Half my foot felt normal again. I was surprised and happy.

But of course I slowly undid all that as I stood and walked for the next 8 or so hours. Now my massaging doesn't seem to do anything.

Well I'm off today and I just helped my sister separate and bag everything in the house to be washed. The apt looks like when we first moved in. She took the curtains. All of them. So much light.

We took so long to do all that she didn't realize until she got to the laundromat that we didn't pack anything to wash them with. 😳

She went to Costco yesterday to buy all that stuff so she could do the wash today. Oh well.

In about 30 mins I'll be sweeping the floor and breaking down the boxes that are taking up too much space in the kitchen.


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May 02, 2017

My Walk Home From The Bus Stop

I tried to upload this to youtube via my Picasa software, but that link seems to have been cut. The same for loading pics to blogger. I shouldn't be that surprised, but I hoped that they were still working. 

Oh well. :) BTW, there is no sound so you can play your own music over it and I suggest going to youtube to see it better. :)


Very Low Dosage

They work on the doctor, but I don't feel anything from the muscle relaxers. I don't expect all the stiffness and pain to go away, but I would like to feel something. 

It's called cyclobenzaprine in10mg tablets. I hoped it would lessen how tight the muscle was pulling on everything so I could have a little less numbness and go to sleep without tiring myself out from massaging my leg. 

If anything, I think I might have massaged my thighs into a good place which now makes me very aware of how much my calf hurts. It's harder to do that part since I have to bend my leg and that spikes the pain my thigh again.

Just took that hot shower. Can I say that I'm clean, I washed my hair again, but my calf/leg feels no different? I'm sure it all comes down to my weight which gives me a higher tolerance for meds and normal measures. 

I'm tempted to double up on the muscle relaxers, but I kinda feel that door opens up to something I don't want. 

I was suppose to go back to the hospital complex to get a primary doctor and also to go down to board street to get Medicare. But I'm very aware that I'm off work to let my leg rest, and give the pills a chance to do something. Relaxing isn't that easy since my leg hurts when I lay down, walk, or sit. Where is an anti-gravity room when you need one? But I'm sure that even that, with my luck, won't help me and cause more problems to boot. 

So while I bounce and roll my foot while massaging my leg as I sit here in pain, I'll try and post some pics that I got for here. 

See you soon. 

May 01, 2017


As far as my attending doc is concerned the simple explanation of my strained muscles is what is causing my foot to be numb, but he can't just fix either.

So I'm at the hospital pharmacy getting muscle relaxers and a higher dosage of ibuprofen. I think it will be like the ones I get from my sister, but ran out of. At least I did that part right. In a day or two, when I don't have a trace of aspirin in my system, I may try the icy hot again. He said I couldn't use it, but did touch on the aspirin thing.

As for the muscle relaxers, I take them before bed because they are supposed to make me sleepy. So I can't take any untill tonight.

I called in to work and called out for tomorrow, so I can give it a day and perhaps get rid of some of the numbness before working for days straight.  So instead of three days, I'm doing two.  I still think that I'll go downtown to try and get Medicare. I have to kook for a doc too. You know a primary one. I heard I could get one here at the hospital. Another call I have to make.

I'm next to information in the hospital, so maybe they can help me. I'll see.

Despite my attending telling me the numbness will ease with my muscles getting better, the pain continues to worry me. I should stop though. My skin is fine, for me, there is no swelling or anything else that caused any alarm for him to go off, so I should stop thinking that I'm going loose my leg or foot.

At least he said it should be fine in a week with hot showers, stretching and the muscle relaxers. That would be nice. I took a month and effort to get this way, I should be grateful it won't take as long to fix it. But with having work it may take a bit longer. But I won't care if I see progress. And that is all anyone wants to see with anything. Progress. The good kind. 😊

Back to pacing. I'm saving my sitting pain for the ride home.  I think I'll G stand in the shower for a bit when I get home.

Oh, he said I could take Tylenol too. I almost got some the others day when I picked up the other things. Oh well.


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I was just registerd

It seems my visit will cost me about $230. Not bad, but I'm sure it will change if I need a scan of some kind.

Flipping pain.

I hope they can actually fix the numbness and the muscle pain today or reduce it enough that I can go to work tomorrow.

We shall see. But I will settle for just having the numbness fixed.

I'm in my "own room" now. So it shouldn't be too much longer.

That pic is something I saw when I came into the room. That is something nice to know.


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That is a hospital bracelet. I'm in the emergency room. I remember someone saying that I could get free heath insurance at the hospital.

Last night I couldn't sleep even after getting home after 10pm. I went to Penn and everything. Anyway, I was trying to massage my leg and foot, bit it didn't seem to be helping so i started to stretch and I thought it was kinda working, and even thought i tired myself out enough to fall asleep, I ended up aggregating my muscles again, so now I'm back to where I was two days ago with a numb leg.

That is really why I went to the emergency room. I asked about the free health insurance and I was sent to another building. It wasn't a busy place, could have been the time of day,  but the one person that I saw there told me to call a number to make an appointment. It was a voice mail.


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