December 30, 2006

on my way home

I no longer hate Barbados, but I do hate what they did to me at the Embassy.

How could they have not known??? Oh, I didn't get it if I hadn't aready said that.

They said that I stayed in the US two years longer than I should have.

Got to go.. another timed computer and I have no more money.. See ya.

December 27, 2006

Still here

Quick, quick note.
I'm still here.
No green card.
I stayed in the US too long. I was in the US 2 years after turning 18. Which I shouldn't have done, which no one told us at the time.
So I have to wait until Sep 2007 before I can apply for my green card.
So my case is on hold and when I come back I have bring my old passpost with me to show when I was in the US.
Got to go, clock ticking on this Mall internet thing.
See ya on the weekend.
Oh, tryed to get out a day early since I was so bumed, but no can do. Suck here until Friday.


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December 20, 2006

I feel More Ready for this

Ok.. I know that I would have been a wreck if I had gotten to Barbados today, and I'm kinda glad that I stayed the day to get a few things fixed and sorted.

Now I don't feel like I'm being thrown into a hole with wishes of landing well.

I have a flight booked for tomorrow at 2 or so. I have to be there like 11:30am or something for booking and getting my bags checked.

I got copies made of somethings. I got three shots here for $10 EC each when it would have cost me $15 or $25 US each for them down there. I've gotten to walk around town with Jhodie and Nika and Jhodie was able to get her shots too and got Nika's birth paper. I we had to talk to a public DA about being able to take Nika to the US and that the father was now saying that she can't go and won't sign papers to let her go, when all the time up until now he knew she was going to the US and was fine by it.

I'm going to go fill out some more paper work. Get my hair greased and combed since I'll be wearing my wig there as far as I know. I just looked up the cheapest places I could find on line after I realized it was getting late. We got back around 3:30 or so. We were talking with Little Ray about getting a C&W phone so I could talk to Jhodie without spending $10 for every 10 mins of phone time. He wanted my phone. My nice Nokia Digi phone. The first phone wasn't enough for me to part with it. So he was able to get me a C&W phone, and a Digi phone that he didn't want that was brand new, that he didn't want, that someone got for him. I came with ear pieces and mic, and a radio soft cooler. I even liked the feel of the phone. So he got it for that. He really wanted a Nokia phone. Lucky me. The one he gave me has an FM tuner in it. I just have to get a $25 chip from C&W and my sister can call me on it, and we can talk until Jan for 1 cent for every min after 8. I'll use my Digi phone when I have to call a Digi phone. Believe it or not, a lot of people do that down here. First there was the divide Digi verses C&W then people got fed up with paying the prices between both, so they got one of the other kind so they could use the deals and offers for people using that phone service.

Well we just got off the phone with one of the places I sent and I have a place to stay. The cheapest of the cheap that I could find. I get the price I want until the boxing day, then I have to change over to another room for $5 more because the room is booked from that day for someone else. I don't mind moving.

Ok.. just a few things left and I'll feel completely ready for this thing. I'm going to have about $5 left for food per day. I may just take some soups with me to help cut down on that. I heard there is a MickyDs there. I'm looking at the dollar menu trust me.

Well I have to go now. No grammar check tonight. I have to do some stuff now. Sorry.

Night. :)

December 18, 2006

I thought that I was freaking out

My sister is now freaking after my mother called to calm me down last night about being able to go and get everything done. Right now I haven't gotten any money yet, and I'll be packing my bags tomorrow. The price for the ticket keeps going up the closest I get to the date without buying a ticket. My sister is starting to look at other airlines to see if they will have a flight that goes there on Wednesday. The one we were looking at, got booked up while we were looking and waiting for the money.

My sister got it in to her head that I could have the tests done here. I told her that it can't be. I have to be there to get them done. I should have gotten my appointment letter weeks ago.

Either which way. I got the time off. From This Wednesday, and I'll be back at work on the 2nd of January. Then I have to make sure that I keep my job long enough to have my loan approved.

In case you are wondering why I'm talking like I won't have my job much longer is because 1, I'm not processing as much orders as they would like, even if I have a good issue rate and something else. And two, Nandy. He was swearing at me again and calling me names. Lynn almost did something about it, but didn't. I can't take mental abuse. I've had enough of it during the early years of my life, and I don't want to end up crying in my bed again because of it like last night.

Well, I have to go bed now. I was suppose to have some money in my account from Simeon, my cousin, but it wasn't there in my account when I checked at 7:15 tonight. I'm going to need some money for my ticket by tomorrow afternoon, and at this point I don't know where it's coming from.

Well see ya. I started to leave and started on a rant... not this time.


December 17, 2006

There was a Dinner

Clear Harbor had a Christmas dinner last night, and I was very early.

Me along with the boss were there for over an hour by our selfs. Well I was by myself, and she was hanging out with the people who worked there. They are all friends it seems.

The table I choose ended up mostly being Career Builders mostly. But we were ok, and I was able to get some answers to some questions. The over all dress for the night was mixed. Some girls came all dressed to the Nine. Some were a bit less shiny like me, and others came in jeans, but not many. Four or so. All the guys were a let down, but then when and why would a guy down here get a black suit? The head of the company showed up in light attire also. He's excuse was that his suitcase was in San Juan. Along with some of the gifts he got for some of the winners. We had winners for employee of the year and a few other titles. They got nice little gifts. The owner of the company made things sound different from how the lady that run the place made it seem. He thanked us for our hard work to help us prove that his idea was a good one, and we had nice dinner, and some people stayed to dance when it was over. I had shows to watch and everything already started late for me, so I got a lift home.

We expected to find Lynn here, the girls wanted to see her, but she had already left. She said that she was going to come by for the bracelet because she wanted to wear it out that night, but she didn't came. I only ended up seeing one of the two shows I wanted to see.

I tried tracking down the other one, but I can't find it. I guess the ad on the tv was just to make you feel bad that you couldn't see it. Or I got the date mixed up, or we didn't have the right pbs channel for it.

I helped with making lunch/dinner today. Yesterday I went to make lunch, and I thought about making enough for at least me, Lynn and Xhaion but she didn't have enough rice. It was more or less cabbage rice, that had stir fried carrots, onions and alot of garlic and then mixed it all together. It was really garlic like I wanted it, and the carrots were still hard. I didn't want to cook them too much, and the little bit of salt that I use was enough. It came out quite well. Today I tried to do it again on a bigger scale. Not as good as the first time, but not bad. It needed more garlic, and I wish I had some more carrots. It went well with the scalloped potatoes that Lynn made. I wasn't too keen on the meat part of the meal. It was fine with me up until she put spaghetti sauce in. I looked at her as she put it in thinking, "What on earth are you doing?!?!?" Now it was sweetish. But the guy that came for his share like all of it. He took her to town and brought her back from shopping and even helped pay for some of it, so he got a meal out of it. Oh, that was while I was cooking the day before. Considering how much food cost in the place, if he gaver her less than $30 then he got his money worth. She even made something for him to drink.

Well I have to go to bed now, or at least try to. I have to iron my skirt for work tomorrow.

I just talked with my mom. She is trying to get my plane fare from someone else because Delma can't do it. I'm about ready to ask G, but I don't know if he will lend me the money. Granted he gets to see me in 5 months if he does, but the most I've ever asked him for was an e-mail and $50 EC. I'll see come Monday night.

Well, it's late on my end. It's now 9:54 pm. This is the second time I've been in Nevis for a Sunday night before work. It feels odd.

Well take care everyone. Be safe, and have fun.

December 16, 2006

I was going to blog tonight.

Hi ya.

I had it in my head to get a few things down tonight, but it's no longer tonight. Lynn just left and I should get some sleep since I'm working off of like 5 hours sleep. Some kid spent the night, and had the tv on over my head with the light when I told him that I was coming out to sleep. And then of course Nandy did what he could to make sure I couldn't fall asleep anytime soon.

My job thinks that I have two issues. One I'm on probation isn't up yet, so I can't have vacation time, and I need to process some more orders. If I don't up the amount I do they will let me go. But I when brought up that we weren't getting that much, I was told that while everyone else but one person has processed over 100 orders I've come in in the 50's. That one other person was up in the 80's. The boss lady do didn't like the idea that I had to be gone for so long said that I may be spending too much time confirming my orders and getting my details right. More or less and that they will have to find a way for me to help me speed up how I process orders so I can get more done. I'm not that happy about it, they rather I do more then get them right? But I sat in that same chair a few months ago saying that I should be able to process the amount of orders I needed to for my quota. Of course I said this with out knowing what went into processing an order, and I was interested in another job when I was having that interview.

Today I realized that I'm a problem fixer. I'll take as long as it takes, but I will fix the problem. They rather have someone just list all the problems as fast as possible rather then fix all of them.

But I did get my time off from work. I'm going over on Tuesday night. I get on a plane Wednesday morning, and early afternoon I land in Barbados. I then look for a place to stay and I then book an appointment for my tests. Then I go in the next day hopefully, get my tests done, then wait for them, then go to embassy on Wednesday, then go though all that, then hopefully all goes well and I'll be leaving for home Friday if not Saturday and then I get to spend some time with Jhodie and Nika until I have to leave for Nevis again on Tuesday morning.

Now I just need for Delma to kindly pay for my tickets so I can go.

I should think positively. This will happen. I will pay everyone back with my part of the loan for the flights and such. I will be on a cruse ship back to the US within 6 months time. I will call up G to see if I can come by. Then take amtrack up the east cost to NY where I start my life over. Again.

Ok. I'm going to bed now. See ya.

Guess I ended up bloging after all.


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December 09, 2006

A Bit of News

I just told a good friend of mind that in 3 weeks if all goes well, I'll be holding and looking at a green card with my name on it.

My mother has received notice that we will be called to the US embassy in mid December to get our green cards. So now we are trying to get a whole bunch of stuff done.

I'm trying to get a loan to cover just about everything and even pay off some of my bills while I'm at it. One of the things that I was banking on before I was fired what that I had a job attached to me that I had been at for 8 years, and planed on keeping as I moved to the US to assure them that I was going to be able to pay them back. Now I have a job letter saying that I've been employed since late August.

Oh, I must apologize for how I may sound today. Two days of living off an English mini seres and I'm back to sounding like I'm from England. I woke up this morning telling myself don't talk because even my thoughts were still back in when ever Pride and Prejudice was written and meant for.

I thought that I should have applied for a loan back when I was still at Ross just because I knew that I was going to need the money. But at the time I didn't have any calateral for such a loan. This loan that I am getting is a Christmas thing that you don't need to put up something for the money. Like a house or car or something close to the value of the money that you wanted from them. You can use the money for any reason up to up $15,000. I asked for $12,000, thinking that the stay in the island along with the plane fare and tests would be rather high. My sister got a much more calming estimate of what the whole thing might cost per person.

Today I had to go get my passport pictures taken. Yuck!.. But then who likes their's .

Well I was just trying to find out how much the tests are going to cost for when we got there, but I can't find details. Oh well, I should have enough to cover them all the same. If this all happens, it will happen between Christmas and new years. A week after the Christmas party for work that I've decided to attend. Which reminds me that I have yet to try out my new shirt since I bought it. I still haven't gotten the new shoes yet. Guess I'm wearing my office shoes to the thing then.

Other news being that the insects of the islands are trying to eat me in their own way. Lynn has gotten a monitor at the student sale today. I guess the laptop goes back to the real owner now. Good thing too, I've been trying very hard not to install IE7 unto that thing. And just the other day I was asking Marcus how he intended to get his music off the laptop that he was trying so hard to download. Since I don't really think he has any money to get CDs. But like the person he is, he didn't think that it was worth answering me and just tuned back to downloading his music.

I'm just about ready to go to bed now.

Oh, I changed my avatar over at yahoo. Let me see if I can get a pic to post here. I got a snap shot.
If you don't see it, I think you can get if you looked me up at yahoo profiles. I gave it some weight like I have. I thought it was wrong to have a skinny AV when I never haver, and or will never be that thin. I do hope to go down in weight a better way then I've been doing lately, but I never want to get so thin that my legs and arms can be called stems.

Well good night. :)

December 04, 2006


Ya, another long spell of no blogging.

I think you more or less know why. As for why I didn't blog when I'm in St.Kitts, I just didn't feel like it. I was just happy to be home and to sleep in a place I liked and missed. Also, after some catching up and doing some kind of shopping, it's time to get ready to go back over, wash some cloths, get Nika her news story and help write it, wash her hair and my own, then help Jhodie make dinner, then eat, then finish packing to make sure I have just about everything if not everything, then get my hair done after Nika, then go to bed to wake up in time to maybe eat something then catch a bus down to the boat in time.

That thing that bit me last week Tuesday is still bugging me. Did I tell you about it? In case I didn't, I was standing waiting for a bus Tuesday morning over in New Castle, and when I sat down in the bus that finally showed up, I felt something bitting me. I look down to see this moth type thing that has dug into my skin and staying there. I knocked it off, and just scratched my hand. That sounds like the start of something bad doesn't it. Well I wasn't too worried since one bit me before, and I was fine, but this one seems to be lasting longer. It could be that I'm just more stressed, and starting to hate it over there even if I don't see Nandy any more.

Nandy was the guy I got into a fight with that weekend I stayed over and was trying to clean. It seems that he now sleeps somewhere else. I thought that he just left, but Lynn made it sound like he still came by after I left, which I can believe since I have to be out of the house by 8:30 at the latest.

One day last week I got to work one min past 10. All thinks to Xhavion. I had to help him with homework that his mother doesn't make sure he does, but leaves for me to make sure he does before getting him off to school, since I have to be at work later than her. If the boy even tried to do what he had to do, never mind told, I wouldn't have been late to work. He waisted over 30 mins of my time with something he could have done in like 15 mins. The only way I got to work that close to being on time was because I ran into someone I knew while waiting for a bus that I found out was over 5 mins way. We also rain into someone else in my department who just got off the bus and was waiting for a lift up to work. We gave her a lift, and maybe if I hadn't stopped for her I would have been on time, but I couldn't leave her.

Now I'm waiting to see how the turns out. Will I be docked 30 mins pay for getting to work 1 min after the hour?

Other than that, one of the guys at work made me laugh when he said that drinking so much water wasn't good for me. I had to drink some sugar once in a while. That was funny. Water was bad for me. He asked if all I drank was water since that was all he ever saw me drink. I said yes. I can't get koolaid at the house. One they don't have any, two they don't have any to hold a good amount of koolaid in, and three, I don't make koolaid by the cup. I just don't. So I drink water. I don't even think that I even drink as much as I should on some days. At least my skin won't complain.

Last weekend we were slightly invaded by Lynn. I so didn't like it that I was cursing her as I was walking down the dark road to the main road from work that Friday. Sol was on his way to get me, but I wasn't happy. One of the reasons for coming over St. Kitts is to not see her, or anything from Nevis. What is the point of spending $40 to get away from things/ people that just follow you? But at least it was more then her that I was coming over to St.Kitts to get away from. Now my sister tells me that Lynn my be pregnant. What gives with that? Wasn't she just asking me about birth control? She can't have another kid. She can't really take care of the ones she has now, and she's going to have another one?!? I thought about why she doesn't get an abortion before it's too late if it's true, but even I know that, that just about never happens down here. I don't even know if they do, do it down here.

It seems that I'm going to the Christmas party that Allconnect/ClearHarbor is having on the 16th of this month. The lady that runs that place, is always trying to scar us into doing better, then make us feel guilty for getting anything nice from the company. I don't like it. Allconnect was just up there, and it didn't want to pay a real wage to someone, so they closed down a center up in the US and sold the jobs to ClearHarbor for $10EC an hour. That's not much at least not for me who has to split my pay between St.Kitts and Nevis. But I know that I'm not the only one who thinks that. Since I've been there, I know of 3 who have jumped ship. One just walked out during lunch, one got a part time job along with her side job of plating hair, and the third one got a much better paying job.

Either which way, if we don't fill the amount of orders that we said we would, we would lose their contract, and they would take the jobs to another island where they would pay $8EC or is it $8 of what ever money the use there. I hate it. I hate the whole thing. Why don't they just do the honest way. Have an idea that can make money, and take care of the people that work for you, instead of hiring and firing to make pay someone a lower wage so you can get more money.

Although things have gotten a bit better with the bills we have to pay, we have lost our home phone. We didn't mind so much since we have cell phones now, and people can call us on them.

Last week we for sure found out that someone with a key for the house has been coming in when Jhodie was at work and more or less went shopping though our house. Besides the missing things, the thing that really told us was that they were here was that they took a key or something like that and scratched up a spot on our computer monitor. Jhodie just found out that something else was missing from the pantry last night. If we ever get our hands on this person, we are going to really hurt them. Jhodie thinks that it's Pearl, or Peter, or someone else who may have found, or made a copy of our keys. We just don't know, but if it's someone we do know, they are so dead. Either which way. Around Wednesday she got a new dead blot for the front door, and changed out the door knob with it. Right now only her and Nika have a copy. I just don't where in town to get a copy made or I would spend the $8 to get one made for myself.

Oh get this. I found out that a bus is paid every night to take the 9pm shift workers home. I didn't know this. Why was I asked to make my own plans to get home when working that shift? Why have I been having an old tired guy drive me home each night for that week when I didn't have to?? I asked someone else this time to find out why the bus wouldn't go to New Castle. I was told that they hadn't talked to the driver, but as far as they know, it should take me home, since the company was paying it to take the works home. So I'm going to find out and if it's true, Solo wouldn't have to come for me anymore, and he can stay home.

The other thing that I ran into this week was a commission work. A guy at work, asked me to write a poem for him for a girl he liked. I have issues with this. One, she's currently with someone. He swears it's going down hill, but to know guys down here, they would just say that to get help. Two, he doesn't see this as long term. Not even long term enough to see them living together. He doesn't know much about her, and most of what he can tell me is that she likes this song, and that every time he hears it, he thinks of her. Great, but that's not much for anything. Poem or relationship. But I have to be objective about this a bit. Just because he is nowhere near what I would think a decent boyfriend should be, that doesn't mean that he shouldn't have someone and that someone else can't like him that much. I haven't written a thing down for him, but I have thought up a few things. But I'm coming from the girls end, and I have to make it sound like him. I don't want to sound like him. Him is what is I try to avoid. Great!

Well I got to go now. That seems like I nice catch up.

See ya.

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November 23, 2006

Near the end of November.

Something nice if you are making yourself something or want to impress someone else and you still have time to shop and cook. :)
I got the day off, and I've cleaned a bit, did a little computer cleaning of the laptop Lynn has someone gotten her hands on since the computer monitor blew last week. And I had an hour or so nap.
This morning was a fight to get Xhavaion dressed and out of the house. It was more like getting him out of the shower, eat breakfast, get underware, pack the right bag for school and get dressed and out of the house.
People who want to be parents should be given a day with the other people's kids so they can start to get an idea of what goes into taking care of kids. They don't just show up all clean and well behaved like the ones they like so much. Mix it up so they have a real clue. 12-16 years old one day, a 5 month old for another day, a 2 year old the next, and then end it off with a 7 year old. Then let's see what they think about it. If they still want to go though with it, they will now have a plan and get a few things nailed down.
I thought about going to the beach today when I found out that work wasn't having it's Thanksgiving lunchen after all. But you know me, I'm not a beach person. Besides, the day isn't long enough for me to talk myself into going to the beach and actually making it there.
Well my time is just about up. It's 3:39, and I think that Lynn gets off work at 4pm, and she'll be here about 20 mins after that I think.
On a parting note, reflexive arcade has a few new games, and they picked up another Zuma clone, and there are a few more cards games now. Every since "Aloha Solitare", they have been a ton more with their own take on it. Talk about copy cats, but some are intresting, as long as it's not a blind copy and has more than one thing new about it, it should be ok, and you can just pick the one that you like the most.
Take care, and don't eat so much you get sick. For those of you having thanksgiving that is. For those you who aren't, you can still cook the things at the start of this blog whenever you like.
See ya.
PS.. I'm once again sorry about the wallpaper club. I'm going to try and remember to get somethings posted for next month.   
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November 06, 2006

Nothing much today.

Other than spending too much for my breakfast/lunch and owning him 75 cents because I ran out of money. There’s nothing much to talk about.

I went to the bank to get money, and the ATM didn't have 20's so I had to go inside. Before coming to Nevis, I hadn't seen the inside of a bank this much in years.

The rest of the day was normal. No break downs, just a delay in getting to new orders because of all the call backs we had to make. I did a good amount of orders, and I even got some supplies for the group.

I caught the bus down to town from work. I made sure I was ready on time since my ride is off for the week. I had to wait 30 mins for a bus to come by to take me to New Castle. I think that there are less bus now going that way then when I started working here. Maybe the sun setting earlier had something to with it.

The moon looked nice tonight. It was a full moon and we have great views of it most of the ride home. The bus I caught went through a few villages that were up in the hills to get me home. I'm happy he only took $3.50 from me. At one point before he turned off the main road, I was starting to think that he was going to leave me down on the main road to walk it up here in the dark. And I do mean the dark. They don't believe in street lights much it seems. Half the place is in the dark and that includes the main roads.

At least I came home to dinner. Odd, but editable. She wanted me to bring the veggie beans over, but I forgot about them. I'll bring them next week with maybe something else. I also forgot to bring over some tea bush for Karen. I have to bring some of that over for her too. I hope she forgets to ask me about it for a while.

One of the guys in our department seems to be out sick for the week. He's already missed out like most of last week. I have a feeling that we will be pulling over time, but I don't know if I can get to stay for any since my ride is off keeping his lady friend company and nothing comes over here that late.

Well that's it. I've think that I've gotten as much time as I can over here.

I'm going to spell check. Don't worry.

November 05, 2006

Something Small

Mostly, it's just a link today.

I watched this show on Thursday I'm pretty sure. It's called..... something... but here is a link to the first page I've found on it. The channel that aired the show, had nothing, and I mean nothing to tell you about it. Well, other than what time it came on, and at this point I'm surprised it was there at all.

Now it's kinda gross, just be happy that you are just reading it and not watching the show.

Friday I got paid, but like I said before, it feels kinda odd being paid on a non 15th or 30th day of the month. But at least I'm in SK. (st. kitts). The crossing could have been a bit better. I got to town during a down pour, and had to make my way to the boat carrying alot of things and trying not to get at the same time. That just about never works. I kinda saved my skirt, but my shoes were thinking of defecting to become water-soluble. So I took them off when I was on the boat which turned out to be a bad idea since the air con was on and was set for 77 Degrees. They were ice cold when I put them back on. Also some students decided to head over to SK and they were just loud and couldn't read. In that last part I meant that they paid for a B class ticket. A nice big B is printed on it, and they walked right in the sectioned off A class section. I felt like saying something, but two things stopped me. One, they wouldn't think that I was something worth listening too, and two, they might have paid for A class ticket. Something else caught my attention when I when they were filing past me. This one guy. He was rail thing and looked healthy. I mean I looked up and there was an elbow joint in fort of my face like 12 inches away, and it was covered with healthy looking skin and hair. I then looked down to see how bony his legs where. They were just as thin. A walking skeleton. Wow.

They were horsing around and play hitting each other in a very odd way. I'm not a fan of pretending to hit anyone. And it wasn't a little slap on shoulder. But full on attempts to punch a girl in her face. I just considered the whole thing disturbing. Once they were told that they couldn’t be in that second by the ticket taker, a girl that was close to them had to leave her seat because they were so loud. But at least she got to meet some nice people that she tried to talk with and offered a ride too once the landed.

I asked the ticket taker what colour an A class ticket was and He said that they didn't have any. Oh. I was on the boat about twice to see a member of Gov. and a few judges sat up there on the trip over to Nevis. guess it’s just really mean for VIP’s only.

Well I just came back from a snack/dinner brake. I'm getting ready to watch a movie with everyone else. So I'm signing off now.

See ya. Off to spell check.


That was a long spell check time. I lost internet... I'm not even sure it's fully back yet, but I'm going to try and post this anyway. I just woke up becasue of the skerters eating my fingers. Ya, there is a nice pic.

Take care.

Date Correction

I just saw that the last two blogs were in the wrong order. I haven't a clue how that happened. I knew that I blogged at least once last week.

Yes the time stamp is rather early for this one. It should say Nov 5th at 3:16 am. I got up to use the bathroom and stopped by the computer to see how a download was doing. It's not doing as well as I expected. I expected a must faster download spead, but I'll be happy if it's done by tonight around 7pm.

Well the rest of the week didn't go as well as Tuesday. On Wed, and Thursday, the systems/vpn was down. The first day we lost half the day and the next day we were only an our so up sooner. That recked how many I could done, and I tired to do my call backs the first day just to be told that I wasn't suppose to do them because were backed up. Well sorrrryyy. You should have told me sooner. Like when you got there, not 5 hours later after I cut my lunch hour in half so I could get a few exrea done to help out, as slow as I am. Hum!

The next day I didn't do any call backs until the end of the day, and lucky me I was only blessed with have to make 3 calls for that day. Which gave me some time to try and get some of the 12 from the day before.

Thrusday I had a whole bunch to do, then I don't have that much on Friday or at least I got most of the cust the first time I called. There is more, but I don't think I can say any of that.

At least I've been to work early since I saw Lynn in the hospital, that maybe why Ron hasn't talked me about it. I'm hopping that if I keep this up, it may go way after one little talk say that even though I was late that day, I haven't been on time the rest of my monitored period, they won't fire me or give me another warning. I hope that's how it goes.

As for back at the house, Lynn thinks that I can read her mind. She wanted bread, didn't call me to tell me to buy any, then is upset that I didn't get wheat bread when I thought of getting bread all on my own. Then when I pointed this out and stated that the last time I got bread and said that it was wheat, she didn't seem all that happy. But she has to eat wheat bread now she said. Her little stay in the hospital must have inclued what she should and shouldn't be eating since she is diabetic now.

Next, it seems that she found my brass copy of the key to her room that I've been looking for. I found Xhavion trying to lock me into the bathroom with it on Friday. I took it from him to try since it was brass coloured, and it worked. I didn't find out that it was Lynn who found it, until she invaded our home late Friday night.

I came here to get away from "Nevis". *shaking head* This was going to put a bit of a damper on things.

On the up side, my sister got the barrel out of customs and it didn't cost her extra. There was the paper work that she paid for, there was the tuck to get it from there to the house, and then there was like $13 housing fees or something. But no $100's for the barrel itself like the last few times we got one.

Now we have to share out stuff to people. Mom sent stuff for a few people, and Jhodie didn't fell right about giving some to Lynn, so she is getting a cut too. That does cut down what we are going to have left for ourself, but we did ok I guess.

Today is Guy Fawkes day. Nika lit her fireworks last night. I stayed home for some computer time since I took the computer apart to help trouble shot someone else's computer just to have the computer go odd on me and not show anything on the monitor for like 4 hours.

Also, the time change has thown what we watch compleatly upside down, and adding in new shows doesn't help matters. Friday I was able to see Dr. Who, but I missed the ending of BattleStar Galictica, and I only saw the last half of "Heroes". I was hopping that she was going to end up on the good team, but I kinda knew that it might not happen, but I didn't expect her to die the way she did. The odds that her boyfriend had powers too.

Well, it's going for 4am, and the mosqitos are trying to eat my legs so I'm going back to my couch bed. I'll spell check this later.

See ya.

October 31, 2006

Happy All Hollows Eve

Well I didn't get a costume like some of the girls did at work. I'm pretty sure that the few "boys" who are there didn't dress up beyond the black shirt and jean dress code that we were given for the day.

Hema borrowed her sister's nurse outfit, and one of the supervisors dressed up like a local sergeant. Everyone seemed to have liked my wig after they got over the shock of seeing me in it. It's amazing what some people laugh at. I guess its how most people deal with pleasant moments of shock down here. Just about every one in my section I think was able to get their hands in my hair. One girl, who has naturally long hair, said that I now looked girly. Gee, I need long hair to be labeled a girl it seems like.

I was so happy to take that wig off. It was hot under there and I need a brush to keep it looking good and I forgot to pack the one I got for it. When I was leaving, I was asked how come I took it off. I said that it was just for the day, and the day for me was all at work. I also said that I may wear it next week. At the time it was completely possible. Now, not so possible. I already told them inside that it was just for today.

Yesterday was an ok day besides the fact that our phones weren't really working for the whole work day. Oh, and to top off yesterday, I didn't get to see "Heroes". The channel was out. :( I'm going to send my sister an e-mail and ask her to tape it for me on Friday. It re-runs when I'm the boat going over, and it seems like she will be flipping for my boat ride this weekend coming.

Tomorrow is Wednesday and it's the first time I'll be going to the bank for the week. The later in the week I go to the bank the less I spend, or so it's been until tomorrow I'm sure. I haven't bought anything for lunch for the week. I don't even know what I had for lunch on Monday. I think that I got a noodle from the store, but I don't remember. Today we had a free lunch, so I got all that I could, and I even carried my bowl thing incase I could get left overs. I didn't want left overs if there was any. One, we didn't get much, and two most of it wasn't that great, and three it wasn't even what we were told it was going to be. But they took pictures of us anyway. What is with people taking pics of you as you try to eat??

Well I came home today to find the house dark and empty. Infact, the whole area was dark. We were in the middle of a black out. It must have been for a while, nothing was even cooked and the place was slightly cold. But that could just be from the fact that the back door and a few windows were open, and there was some breeze tonight.

Well Lynn is now home and I helped her put up some stuff that she bought which was a lot really. Not as much as what me and Jhodie use to get, but then she doesn’t have that much money. We don’t have that much money anymore. I'll see if there is anything I can add to it, but I don't really know since I'm still on a very thin budget. But I'll see.

I'm getting off soon. I'm sure she's itching to get on, but currently she is trying to help Xhavion (I'm looking at his name on something. How come people come up with some names I don't know.) with his home work. I'm going to look for dinner.

See ya.

October 29, 2006

Weekend with an out look.

Well I just got the computer completely cleaned.

It seems a bit faster, and the Trojan is now gone alone with the other little bits that it found. It took me like 3 programs and about 12 hours from the time that I turned it on Friday night until this morning when I got the last of it out.

I went though like 3 programs and after installing them and letting them run for about 2 hours each just to find out that I couldn’t clean anything until you bought it, and on the site that told you get it for the program said that you could use it for a time and clean your system with it. So just to keep them at their word, I got a cracked version of one of the program so that I could clean my system and then the second program that was needed to make sure that the Trojan/virus was off my system.

Now my time over here is almost over, and it looks like I'm looking at another 2 week stint in Nevis. If Lynn stays in Nevis this weekend I might go to beach. I don't know yet. If she is going this weekend, then I get the room and I'll just sleep and clean again.

Well, I wasn't given a talk about the one late day I had after I was told about my lateness. I hope it stays ok, and that I get to keep showing up early for the rest of my monitored time. I have my clinic appointment next week on the 7th. I'm having my sister talk to the nurse at the clinic here to send a copy of my file over there. I have to get there early like 8:30 so I can still make it to work on time/early. I'm going to be so tired that day.

It did fell odd being back over here this weekend. I miss home. Ya, I'm calling St. Kitts home.. but mostly this house with Jhodie and Nika.

A piece of mail come for me, and I can't pick it up, so I wrote a letter for her to give them at the post office so they could give it to her. I wonder if I have sign the slip that they sent? The told my sister that I just have to sign a note and that should be it, and I hope that, that is it. Because I most likely won't be back here for 2 weeks unless my sister has an extra $4o by Friday for me to come over.

Well, this Tuesday is All Hallows Eve. Ya, I call it that, and Clear Harbor wants us to dress up and such. I'm going to look different, but I won't really be wearing a costume. I'm wearing my long hair wig, with my new black top and I wanted to wear a my jean skirt, but I was reminded that it got torn and can't really be worn to work. I might just wear my new green jean skirt instead.

At least I'll be able to get some use of the wig that I really shouldn't have bought.

Well that's it I think.

See ya.

October 25, 2006

The Past Two Days.. and one more

Up and down. Up and down.

That is what the last two days have been for me.

Tuesday I went to give Lynn her stuff, and the bus driver stole $5 from me for the lift up the street. I got there about 12 past 9, and I left almost at half past, and I then had to walk back down the long road back to the main street where I could catch a bus to work. But get this, not one bus that was going to Brown Hill came by. I was standing there waiting for a bus from about 20 till and I had to take one that dropped me off at the mouth of Brown Hill and that left me having to walk it up at 9:54 if not 9:56. I don't remember anymore, and it doesn't really matter. The out come was the same. I got to work late. I punched in at 10 past. The downer from the day before was very pale compared to how I felt for the rest of this day.

At the time I thought that I had a good reason for being late since I tried to flag down a bus that I believed went to brown hill and it didn't stop for me back at 9:35. Today I tried to catch the same bus but before he couldn’t tell me if he went brown hill or not, he just pointed back to the bus that was just behind him saying that, that was the brown hill bus. I guess that still answered my question. It doesn't go to Brown Hill. But I still believe that I saw it up there a few times.

Well, I felt so bad, that I thought that if I talked with the director of the place, I might be able to get her to understand and not have this lateness counted against me. I was going to say how I went to see my cousin in the hospital and that I couldn't see her before 9 and that I only spent 15 mins there and then there was the bus that I believed went to Brown Hill that didn't stop for me and that I had to walk it up from the main road. I went and asked her on my lunch brake if I could talk to her, she said that she had to check her appointment book to if she was free, and then she said that I had to go through my manager first, I told her that I already talked to him and that I think that I had to talk to her. After lunch I was thinking about it, and thought that maybe I should talk to Ronald first, to make sure I'm not jumping anything. So when she came to talk to me I told her that I was going to talk to Ronald first. She said ok and went back to what she was doing.

I felt bad, thinking that I was going to get fired again. I almost cried over my lunch before the lady came in. But by the time my shift was over I wasn't feeling as bad, but I was still worried because my sister had called me when I was on my way to the hospital to see Lynn, and she told me about the mess at Hosford. I have in my bag two invoices stating that I paid on the bed and the bed should have been paid off and a little of what was left from the second payment going towards the washer. I was then told that they believe that I hadn't paid a dime in like 6 months. Which is so untrue, and that my stuff was set up for being repo-ed. It has been over a week since I paid the last payment of $180. And to boot, they have bee splitting up the money among the three items.

With all that spinning around me head I lived, more or less, though that day. I didn't get much done as you might expect. I didn't even get to 19 orders that day.

Then I got home and Jhodie called me again. We talked for a while and she tried to make me not feel so bad, saying that I was going to quit that job anyway. Ya, after I had at least paid off the bed and perhaps caught back up with the other items so that I would have some leeway when I was out of work again. So we most or less said that if it came down to them firing me, I would just say that I quit first, but barring that, I'm going to try and stay until the end of November. Longer is possible.

I just don't have to do anything odd or different or anything for anyone that keeps me from getting to town in time to catch a Brown Hill bus to get me to work before 10am. In the US this would be so easy, at least in the city that I would be living in. Either which way. If I pull off not getting to work late for the rest of this probation time I might be ok.

Well today, my alarm wasn't what woke me up, but Lynn's mother. She was back. She came looking for her umbrella, and to ask me why I was telling her daughter that she was cursing out my parents. I told her that I didn't tell anyone that. I told her that I said that she came here and started saying things about my parents and I didn't know what she talking about. She then repeated what she said the day before then added that she didn't want to have anything to do with me and then I told her to check the boys room for her umbrella and turned back over to go back to sleep. I don't remember how the door closed again. I don't know how much longer, but soon I heard someone else shouting out in the living room. I think it was his aunt from what I heard her saying about how he, Marcus, was suppose to be staying or sleeping, up by them and that he was going to go to school and to get Xhavion's school clothes ready. I just left them alone. If he had just done it on the Sunday, he might not have had to deal with this, at least half of it anyway.

At one point I just got up and sat on the bed and then about 5 mins later my alarm went off. I can't even sleep until 7am. Well today for sure I had no breakfast. I got to work about 30 mins early, and I took both my breaks and I almost finished a whole page. The only thing that was off was at the end of the day.

I was doing a double order and I was dreading them today. It was like they would do whatever they could to cause me problems and take up as much time as possible. And so, the last one also tried to mess with me. I just cut my losses and left a note for myself so I would worked on it as soon as I got in, and tried to get outside in time to catch the bus. They asked me if I was coming when they walked past me and I said that I was coming now. But what did that do for me? Nothing. They lift without me anyway. So I was left to walk down the half a mile of dark road over hills in the middle of a thunder storm that could have turned to rain any min since it already rained like 5 mins before our shift was over.

I turned on my phone and waited for Solo to call me as I walked to the main road with no great rush. He called at almost 7:30, and just before he got there, the bus or a bus with the girls from work was on it's way back up to drop the rest of them off. They called out to me, which is how I knew they were in there. I shouted “Thanks for waiting for me.” back at them. Then I he showed up. I thought he didn't see me since I was standing back in the bus stop that had a lot of shadows. But no, he saw me, he just wanted to turn around off of the main street.

We went to bakery and got some bread. Some for Lynn, some for him and some for me. I even got a hard boiled egg to go with one of mine. I'll have one of them for breakfast with some peanut butter. I see myself now walking down the road eating it. I don't have time to say in here and eat it if I want to get to work early. Tonight I ate the egg with one of the bread. I'll have one bread left for Friday morning if not Thursday night.

So now it's now. I'm blogging.... I jumped something. We took the bread to Lynn in the hospital and she asked for her pj's again. She didn't want the ones I sent the first time. So when we got home I went though her stuff again looking for the ones she told me about and sent what I found. Marcus was also here. I asked him if he was staying here tonight. He said yes. I asked him if he wasn't suppose to be up by his aunt. He said no. I called Lynn on Solo's cell and she told me no and I handed the phone to him and went to get her stuff.

It's 10:56, and I don't know if he is still here. I washed up most of the dishes and cleaned up the counter top. I think the guy is here, I'm going to go look in a sec.

This is set up to be checked and such, and I think that I'll get this posted tomorrow. I don't know when Lynn will be back, but I am going over on Friday.


Well it's Thursday night. Lynn is home, and in bed right now. I've had a decent day at work. I got to work early again, and didn't reach 20 orders today because I was going to catch the bus to town tonight. And guess what? I got there and then the bus sat there. And sat there. It waited for about three or so other people. I then asked the question just before we moved about how come it could wait for everyone else but me? I think the question was asked again as I was getting out because there was laughing for something as I handed over my fare. Also a girl told me that I didn't need the change and that I looked so rich. Ya, right.

Then I got home and I realized that I left a bag with my shoes in the back of the bus which was about 30 mins ago.

I came in the house, got a cup of water for Solo and found Lynn on the computer. When I left work and turned on my phone I got a message from her asking where her key was. I couldn't call her back because I had no money on my phone. My sister called me with news of our computer. It seems that Little Ray, got our computer infected, and just turned it off. So now we can't get it to boot into the system. If there is still one left. My sister is worried about loosing the pics of Nika that she had gotten off of uncle Ray's cam. Unlike my uncle who has copies of his pictures on a CD, we have everyone on the computer. I told her that I might be able to save the stuff, but I can't promise anything.

Well I think that I will have to go soon. My typing is loud and waking Lynn.

See ya.

Oh, I got my shoes back. My sister called Karen who knows the bus driver.


October 22, 2006


I almost had a good day today, and it would have been fine if Lynn's mother didn't show up ranting and raving. They heard her clear across the street I found out tonight.

It bummed me out for my whole day. Which wasn't a normal day for me either.

First, I got a ride into town by a nice guy. White I might add. Only one other person has given my a ride too or from work that I didn't know existed before that moment in time. It's a shame he was looking for a girl friend. Granted I could wrong, but I wouldn't put much past men that stop talking to me when I say that never what to have kids. Maybe he wasn't looking for a girl friend, maybe he thought he could settle down with me and that is why he stopped talking when I killed the notion if kids in my future.

Currently I'm watching "Heroes" and I just read an e-mail from my friend Kelly. I miss talking to him. .. be back in 15 to finish this.... “Heroes” is just about finished.

As I was saying.... I got to town in good time to go to Best Buy and get one soup for each day this week for lunch thanks to the guy giving me a ride in to town. Then I took a bus up the bakery to get something to eat for lunch. The ride cost me $2 and the meal which was a dry bread and a fried egg was $2.50 then to top off my day, I walked a mile to work, if not more. I was just about there when another guy gave me lift for the last hill that I was dreading, but it came with a prayer, which I took. I even thanked God myself for the lift.

HA!.. Just saw the ending of “Heroes”... sorry I started writing again when they were on break, and now I'm watching CSI: Miami.

Back to my day, then I'll jump into “Heroes”.

So I got to work about 9:50 thanks to the lift. I reached the start of Brown Hill at 9:30. I couldn't have made as good a time as I wanted to because of the first part of the walk. The whole walk was up hill(s). I kinda think that I got the lifts that I did, because of my black and purple shirt that I wore with my long back skirt. If it wasn't for my hair, you might have thought that I was on my way to church.

Either which way, got to work and in my very thin shirt I was hot for most of my time at work. I didn't take any of my breaks even though I had planed to and I had a hot lunch to keep my temp up. I then spent about the last 15 mins of my lunch brake standing outside to cool down. Once again they asked me if I was on a diet when they saw me eating my noodles. No one else is so poor that they have to "sink" to eating noodles for lunch it seems.

I came back in from watching the clouds drift by the mountain to find that they had gotten someone to come and turn on the AC. I did good with the amount of orders I got through today. If I didn't zone out, I might have finished a whole page by closing time. I left work on time with only one left in the pending bucket for me. I had so many messed up orders today. It's a wonder that I got any fully processed and issued.

I left work on time and got a bus down to the pier. Solo was there waiting for me and it turns out that he was a bit sleepy tonight. It seems that he was out "liming" the night before and didn't get much sleep. I told him that I don't know how to lime and that is very true.

I got home to have Prudence come over and say that Lynn wants some clothes to leave the hospital in. She said that she didn't know when, but not that long ago my sister called to say that she is coming out Wednesday. So Prudence and I spent time looking for shoes, and skirts and shirts for Lynn, then we checked her e-mail for a letter from this place in Miami that they (she and her husband) are trying to buy a nice big red truck.

After she left I watched Heroes. But before that, this morning I told Marcus to hang back out the clothes so they could dry so that Xavion could have something dry and clean to wear to school tomorrow. He didn't go to school, and I came back tonight to see him eating dinner that the guy made for him and I asked him if he hung them out. He said that he wasn't here. Ha? He wasn't here?? He didn't go to school, and I know he doesn't have a part time job. I don't care! He was suppose to hang them out. He had the whole freaking day! He won't be changed easily, and I'm sure it won't be here. He just doesn’t care, and doesn't see why he should care.

He once again came and asked me to use the computer tonight, HA! I told him that he still hasn't hung out the clothes to dry so there was no way he was touching this.

Now I can talk about “Heroes”... I don't think that I'm going to give much way, but if you haven't seen it yet, you should skip this ending part.

Well, first off, I'm glad to see that people are starting to meet the other people, but we are still trying to save the cheer leader. I think that, the part about saving the cheer leader is going to last for about 4 more eps at least. I am happy to see the painter really starting to believe, and now the Asian guys have made contact. YA! I'm so there for the next ep.

Well CSI just finished and I should go to bed now. I'm going to see about doing something different to my hair for tomorrow. Something more in keeping with my outfit. Don't know what I'm going to do for breakfast yet. If I had some milk I may try some oatmeal, but no milk. I may end up skipping breakfast it looks like. I might get some bread and just have that and some water. I'll see. If I do, I won't waste a bus fare in going to the bakery then have to walk it to work. I'll just get it in town.

Speaking of town, I have to drop off the stuff that I picked out with Prudence at the hospital for Lynn. I'm not found of hospitals, and I don't know of anyone who is, so at least I'm normal with that one. Either which way, she asked me if I've gone up there to see Lynn since she's been there. I said no and almost felt that I should have. But I couldn't. One, I had to get to work and such this morning and rest of the time was over the weekend and I didn’t have a dime to go anywhere. And three, this is almost normal for her and didn't think that she needed to see me. Or so I thought.

Well I have to go. It's 11:13pm. I know my grammar is messed up along with my spelling, so I'm saving this for spell check tomorrow, which may be the last time I get on line this week. Depending on how weak Lynn is when she comes home. At least most of the house is clean.

See ya.

Hi ya.

It's Sunday night, and I hurt my back washing the youngest’s school clothes.

The oldest just wouldn't wash them. He knows how to use the washing machine, and we asked to do it since what?...11am if not earlier?

When he came to ask me for the detergent, I told him I hadn't seen any, but the thing I brought to clean the floors can be used for washing clothes and I told him where it was. I went to lay down for a bit and fell asleep. I woke up to see if he had finished, and everyone was gone. He had gotten the youngest from the grandmother's house before I took my nap, and the guy was here. But when I woke up like 30 mins later the house was empty, and the clothes were just sitting in the washing machine in water. He didn't come back for like 3 or so hours. I asked him where he went. He went to play he said. I told him to do go wash the clothes again. Then I went back in the room because he was hanging out with the guy, and I was keeping my distance.

I came back out in like an hour. I didn't hear the washer going, I asked him again. He had made something to eat and it looked like he just came out of the shower. I went to look at the washing machine and the clothes were still there, but no water. He didn't clearly tell me what he was doing and he didn't care what happened to the blue short pants that I placed on the washer when he was out playing. I said under my breath that it wasn't that he didn't know, it was that he didn't care. So I dug through the wet mess and pulled out a shirt and pair of short paints for the youngest. I was really starting to believe that he wasn't going to wash any of them and I had to at least get a set for the youngest boy clean and dry.

I also washed three things for myself. My black bra, my new white skirt and shirt cut on the bis that I thought needed to be rinsed out.

Now my back hurts. I combed out my hair, but I didn't wash it. I doesn't smell that bad, and there is no grease in this house and I need to grease my hair after washing it. But I got it up in two, so I'm keeping it as it.

I did clean the walls like I wanted and got the floor moped and I swept the floor in Lynn's room. I have to iron my shirt before bed, and I'm trying to find out what on earth I'll be eating tomorrow morning, if not for the rest of the week. There is no bread in the house, and I don't have enough to get for everyone, and I will feel bad if I get some just for me.

Right now the house is empty again. The youngest went back to his grandmother's a little after sunset which was after 6 but before 7. He asked for some peanut butter to take with him. I gave him enough for one sandwich. I didn't want to give him too much if ended up eating it all by itself.

I hope the oldest gets back before midnight. He's not going to use the computer though. He asked about using the computer like 2 or so hours ago. He walked in here and looked at the computer and I asked him what he wanted. I knew he wanted to use the computer. I had it on at the time and running a clean up program. He was looking at it and I asked him again. He said that he wanted to use the computer. I told him that he wasn't going to use the computer because he hadn't washed the clothes yet, and reminded him that I told him this morning that he wasn't going to be let on the computer until after he had washed and hung out the clothes. He just walked past me to get dressed. That is when he got around to doing the wash, but he didn't come back to ask for the computer. In fact, if I hadn't gone out looking for something to eat, I wouldn't have known that they turned off the lights and left the house. The only other clue I had was that I heard the back door being closed about 10 mins before I went out there.

Well it's 10:12, and I should get the iron to do my shirt and then get ready for bed. I won't let him on computer when he gets back because it's already past his bed time, not to mansion mine.

See ya. I have that early departure time and I'm thinking of getting breakfast and then walking the rest of the way to work to save the bus fare for the breakfast, if I get there early enough that is.


October 21, 2006

Good Day

Well it's Sunday.

I woke up a few hours ago, and I was just jumping around from tv channel to tv channel looking for something to watch. But it's Sunday, I shouldn't expect much.

Last night after I turned off the computer and was settling to sleep we lost power. It went out slowly. First the fan started to slow down, the tv stayed on. Blinked once or twice after the fan had stopped, then it went out, and I was left in the dark. I thought that was why the internet went down on me when I was trying to get a torrent file. I tried it again today. It took the internet down. So I uninstalled it. I'll just have to give up on downloading anything by torrent then on this computer

Lynn called me. I heard my phone go off and I thought that Jhodie was calling me early. But it turned out to be Lynn. She wanted me to put together her pj's and some tank tops for someone to pick up for her. I'm starting to think that she won't be back on Monday. Am I suppose to look after her kids? They don't pay any attention to me. The first few weeks they kinda did, but now the youngest just turns into a rock and doesn't move when I tell stuff or try to help him with something and then he does what he wants. The older one is just doing what he is doing. I won't be able to help either one of them like this. As for food, my diet just got worst. I'm thinking of adding some noodles to soup I made last night so I can have something decent for lunch. Breakfast was two soft oatmeal cookies with dates.

The youngest is still at his grand mothers, and the other two came back and once again slept in the living room and with the tv on for the whole night. Before the guy came back I told Marcus to go sleep in his bed and turned off the tv. He said ok, but didn't move. Then he came back after the black out which was at 11:30, and he turned back on the tv and turned it all the way back up again like he's loosing his hearing. I woke up at 2:40am to use the bathroom and walked into a wall of sound the bathroom wall and door couldn't protect me from.

I wasn't going to say anything, and went back into my room and closed the door behind of me. I crawled back into bed and I could still hear it like I had it on in my room but turned down. So I went back out and told him to turn it down. I didn't hang around, and when I got back in bed I hit me that I didn't say please. But then I told myself that I shouldn't have to. He come has it blasting at 2:45am. You just don't do that when you live with other people in a very small house. But I'll remember to say please next time.

Right now I'm unplatting my hair so I can wash it later. I have no shampoo over here, so I have to use my bath soap, and I'm going to see if I can pull off ponytails or coco puffs as Ronaldo use to call them years ago. Speaking of him, it will his birthday soon. I wonder if he has any kids yet. He got married years ago. He never tells me anything about himself. He would just ask for pics of school when he did talk to me. I think he is only person that I know what day they were born on besides close family. Wait, I know G's in is April, but I don't remember what day. I have it written up and back home in my draw. I was all set to send him a gift for his next birthday after I found out what day it was, but I didn't know if I should send him anything.

I think that I'm going to sweep out Lynn's room, then I'll see about cleaning down some walls, and then around 4 or so wash my hair. But first I have to finish doing out my hair.

Have a nice Sunday everyone.
See ya.

October 20, 2006

Well today I almost saw the cops.

Long story short, I stood up for myself against the guy that lives here, who I might add is 9 years younger than me, and he almost assaulted me. He removed my hand from something with a knife, and told me he was going to hit me.

He said that he didn't F___ing like me and didn't have to do anything I said that I should just leave and go back to St. Kitts. So before I left to get help to keep him from attacking me, we got into a verbal fight and I said that I was here to work unlike himself. And that he had no manners, which is how this all started, and he just swore at me and I said that, that was as much as he could say.

I then got dressed, walked across the street in the rain and called the neighbors. I told him how the guy almost hit me and had a knife. I was almost crying when I told him this. That really surprised me. He came over and told him to be a be better man than that and to behave and that Lynn left me here to look after the house and if I wanted to watch the tv when cleaning up, he didn't need to come in here and start problems.

Yes, that is how this whole thing started. I was watching tv, while cleaning when he came in the house. He stood in the door way, looked at me cleaning the table and walked over to the tv and changed the channel. I told him that I was watching that. I expected to have it tuned back in like a min after he made me squirm. Then when I told him again, that I was watching that and that he could go into the bed room and watch Lynn’s tv or use the computer he swore at me. Then after a while I told him that I was still waiting. He turned up the volume to the very end and changes the channel to a football match. I went over to turn it down and he started shouting at me not to touch him, then the argument and the knife thing and the calling of the neighbor and all that happened.

It's been about 5 or 6 hours now. I've finished the cleaning that started in the kitchen. I didn't go near the living room since he stayed in there trying to make sure I didn't enjoy the movie that I wanted to watch. He brought out his cell phone, plugged in for power, and turned the volume all the way up and played all that loud music that he knew I didn't like so I couldn't hear the tv. I don't normally turn the tv up high so he it was easy to make it hard for me to hear it.

For the first 15 or so mins I didn't do anything. If he was going to do that I wasn't going to do anything that was going to bring true the scene that went through my head of him hitting me when he was swearing in my face less then 30 mins before. Then after a while of thinking that I wanted to hear it and his phone could only go so high, I turned it up a bit more and went back to cleaning. He just found a louder set of songs to play. Then just as I was thinking that someone came for him and that he was going to leave, he left the phone going full blast while he went outside to talk with his friend. Then when the movie was finished, I changed it something that I thought would make him sick and leave. I forgot how mentally low he was. 15 mins into the show he turned off his phone, and watched it, then 10 mins later he's laughing at the poor woman. It was story of a lady who was having surgery to remove extra loads of skin that was left behind after major weight loss. He was laughing. Laughing.

My sister called just before I was finished with the cleaning. I told her what happened and told her to tell Lynn, because I didn't think that both of us could stay here together much longer. Today I could lock myself away in her room, but most of the time, I have to be out there and he would stay there just to cause problems. She said that she was happy she called. I told her that I wanted to call her and tell her about the movie that was on, that I was trying to watch during this whole thing.

Either way, she went to tell Lynn, and I went and made my lunch/dinner and told him he had the tv and more or less locked myself away in here.

I didn't come near the computer until a few mins ago. Around 8pm. I didn't fell like using it until dark. I got rid of a few games that I was testing out. They ran too slow on this system. This computer needs some more memory. Also, when I was typing this up like 15 mins ago my sister called to see how I was doing. I told her that I hadn't gone near him and that he left about 10 mins before, and that I just cleared of the computer desk. It was a mess. Now I can see around the monitor. *grin*

Well I'm felling a bit better now. I just wish that I had some bread to go with my soup. Later I'll just add some water to it and have it as is. I let it boil down too much before and now it's a bit to salty for me to eat.

I'm going to go surfing soon. Net and tv. Sorry, no real water. A storm has been hanging around us all day it seems, but I know it has been here all afternoon. The back yard is its own marsh. I had to rescue the mop before the blacken stick handle started to swell and rot out of the mop head. It's going to take days to dry out right.

I'm going to change the channel soon and look for something a bit more interesting. I've been watching Cash In the Attic since I've locked my self in here.

Well, I told my sister to call back at 11am tomorrow to see how things are, and I'll let you know tomorrow night if I got around to scrubbing the bath room. Yep I want to do it, but before I do I have to remember to get a good mop and bucket from next door. They don't have a bucket that I've seen.

Well good night.
Take care.

Friday..... it's here....this is the short version

Well it did rain again today, but not to the flooding degree that we had yesterday. Not that it stopped anyone from trying to plan for it. Some schools sent the children home. The sad part was that who told the parents?

One of the departments did so well today that they got a pizza lunch and got to go home early after they went over their target by a huge amount. Due to some paper I signed that is all I can say about that.

I was just happy it didn't rain on me today. Still short on money and shorter than I should be because my sister had to take $20 off of the bank. A girl from work asked me if I would be coming to town since I was staying in Nevis this weekend. I told her that I didn't think I would have enough money for the bus fare. She then asked me if I was that broke. I told her yes.

I might take myself down to the beach if I can't stand it up here.

Oh, I forgot to mention. The house is currently abandoned by everyone else who is suppose to be here. Lynn is in the hospital because of her asthma that has been complicated to a cold. The youngest boy is at his grand mother's. The oldest is off somewhere, and the other guy, I don't know nor do I care. I'm happy I get to sleep in a bed tonight. I can't say I will tomorrow. And I have access to the computer.

This is the first time in 3 weeks that I'm up to watch Dr. Who. YA! *grin*

So see ya.
Take care

And grab a new game for the weekend. :) My suggestion. You would like this a bit more then other players if you have played the first one like I did.

October 19, 2006

Well They Got Me.

I'm so not happy. I would have fumed last night if I was still shaking from seeing the word terminate in reference to my name earlier that day.

I've been calling in to work to let them know why I was late when I've been standing in the sun for over 30 mins waiting for a bus. When it was my fault that I was late I wouldn't call and just take heat for it. But it turns out that all that calling in didn't help me in the least. They still called me on it and said that I signed a contract to be here on time. So now I have to get up and hour earlier, when I'm not getting as much sleep as I need as it is, to get a bus(es) to get to me work early. I can't aim for on time. They sited me for being 5 mins late even though my watch (phone) told me that I was only 3 mins late, but that is besides the point.

So I got up earlier, left an hour earlier, got to work an hour early just in time to beat the down pour that covered both islands today for most of the day. So much so that we got let out an hour early, which didn't help me that much. I got a lift half way down to town. I got dropped off at the bakery which turned out to be close. I got a message from Lynn asking me to ask the guy that gives me ride home at night, to please buy her some bread and a can of milk. I bought them with $5 that I had on me, and the $3 and change I got him I got a hot bread and butter for him and one for me for us to eat on the ride over. And I gave him back a dollar and change. I think I'm going to get some bread from there to take with me over to ST. Kitts when i get to go back.

Speaking of St. Kitts, I just found out from my sister that Marcus, Lynn's oldest is being sent to live with Jhodie to help straighten him out. ??? that is still odd to me. As you may understand, he doesn't pay her any real attention when she's talking to him, but sending him over there isn't going to help him pay her any attention.

She screams at him just about every time she opens her mouth in his direction. Unless she changes, he won't change towards her.

Well it's 9pm now, I have to in bed by 11pm, and I be up by 7am. I know. You look at that and think. Isn't that when you are suppose to go to sleep and be waking up? That is where most of my edge is going. Just because I haven't before or at least not for a very, very long time, doesn't mean that I can't do it now. I just have to buck up and do it and accept it.

I think I'll go look for something to eat before it gets to late. And when I say look, I mean make. Some pasta thing and no meat.

Take care, wish me a dry tomorrow.

October 15, 2006


I bought stuff for the house. Not the house I love, but the house I have to live in to work.

I got food stuff and other little things. As always I need more stuff than I have money for. I have to go give Horsford at least $180 tomorrow before work. They called the house here and left a message for me to come and see them. I know they want to know what gives with me not paying them anything the last time I got paid, but I lost my shoes and that ate my money along with some other things. But I should be able to get them some money next time I get paid and I am paying them this week if not monday. I say if not monday, because the bank's atm isn't working that well and I don't know if they will be working in Nevis when I get there. Since Nevis' went odd on me last week. As far as I can tell all the atms for my bank weren't working today. I tried two, three really, and a lady drove up to me when I came out of one and asked if this one was working. She made it sound like she tried others too and they weren't working either.

Well I'm wearing one of my new skirts over that came down from NY. My family up there sent down a barrel with stuff in it for us and Uncle ray and family and may be some other people. I haven't been there to see or anything, but Jhodie brought over some stuff for us. I got a top, a few skirts. Nika got some shoes, and Jhodie got some more stuff. Stuff that was ment for me, but where a bit smaller than I am. I'm going to wear a white skirt and my red top. I just hope it doesn't get dirty before I get to work. I hate wearing white, they seem to get so dirty so easly on me.

Other than that, nothing much. I told you about Firday and Saturday morning. Saturday afternoon we got out to town, and got a few things. Some food stuff, and I rebought a spoon a fork thinking that the last set I got are long gone even though I know I left them in Lynn's room. We tried to get some PJs for Nika, but we didn't end up getting any after all.

I'm going to half hold my breath to see if she makes dumpplings with the flour that I got her this week. I got a new big bag to hold me stuff for when I go back and forth, a new house dress, and each cost me $20 each. Then I threw in a 4 pack of AA battiers, that cost me another $10. To see a hundread broken like that so quikly, and I thought I had money when I took $160 out of the bank just a few mins before. Now I'm down to $40 from that money. $21 goes to getting back to Nevis, and the other $19 is for two tuna sandwiches, one for breakfast and one for lunch. Then when I get to Nevis I have to go see if their ATM is working so I can get money for bus for the rest of the week and the $180 for the Horsford.

Well I've watched some tv and it's late and I have to get my hair done before I go to sleep, and I have to do that soon since I have to get up and catch a bus to a boat and help get Nika ready before I leave.

I'll see ya.

Jhoy E. Meade

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It is fun and easy 51 questions to answer.


2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Nope, I was just the first grand daughter that my father's mother saw, and my mom added the h.

3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? 5 months ago.

4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? It's not as good as it use it use to be.


6. KIDS? Heck no.


8. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? Yes On line.




12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Honey Bunches Of Oats.


14. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Not as strong as I used to be.


16. SHOE SIZE? 10 1/2 wide width. Ya, I have big feet.

17. RED OR PINK? Red.

18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? Besides my weight? My bad memory.

19. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Besides G?... Right now Jhodie and Nika when I'm in Nevis. A year back it was my mom.

20. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? That would be nice, but I don't expect it. I'll settle for 3 people.


22. LAST THING YOU ATE? Oatmeal cookie with dates.


24. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? I'm sticking with red.

25. FAVORITE SMELLS? Fresh baked bread, and honey suckle.

26. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My ride to lynn's house after work. I was calling him back because I missed his call and needed to add money to my cell phone.



29. FAVORITE DRINK? Ginger Beer.

30. FAVORITE SPORT? Don't think I have one. I'll watch volley ball.

31. EYE COLOR? Mine? Brown.

32. HAT SIZE? Sorry, wrong country. For me just really big. I haven't found one that has ever fit.


34. FAVORITE FOOD? Just one??.. I can give you a dish I would just love but can't have. A place in NY named DoJo. It's around NYU, anyway they have only one meal that I go there for, and I will when I get back. It's the tofu dinner. It's a tofu burger with black sea weed in it, and it came with brown rice, and a salad with house made carrot dressing and I get a glass of OJ to go with it. Now I would ask for Apple juice.


36. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED AT THE MOVIE THEATER? I don't know. What was playing back in 2001 in St. Kitts? I just remember it was cold, and I was with a guy friend of mine that I liked. *grin*


38. SUMMER OR WINTER? Fall and spring...I agree with you Karen...I agree with Misty.

39. HUGS OR KISSES? Guy or girl? Friend or boyfriend?.. I need a better question.

40. FAVORITE DESSERT? Tapioca Pudding or rice pudding.

41. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? The girl who sent it to me. She did the last time we did this. *grin*

43. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? Just finished a book last night. Skinny Dip. A dumb man tries to kill his wife and fails, and then fails to kill two other people after that to keep something or get out of something, They live, and then ... read the book. :)
44. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Don't have one here.

45. FAVORITE TV SHOWS? I don't watch much tv now. How about ... Friday night line up on SciFi Channel.

46. FAVORITE SOUNDS? Nothing, or the buzzing sounds of humans living their lives outside my door.

47. ROLLING STONE OR BEATLES? I kinda like both, but if I have to choose, I pick the Beatles.

48. THE FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME? That depends, which home? My home in NY, then it would St. Kitts. My home in St. Kitts, then it would be NY. Sorry, I don't travle much.

49. WHAT'S YOUR SPECIAL TALENT? Sorry, I don't have any.

50. WHEN & WHERE WERE YOU BORN? January 12, Wednesday I think, St. Kitts.

51. WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? Misty, a friend of mine from Ross U.


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October 14, 2006

I have to correct a few things.

I have to say sorry for one if not two things.

The first one being about Sermel, the girl that I started to work at Clear Harbor with. I once said that I didn't really think that she did any work, but lately we were presented with awards. More like had them, but either way, I found out that she got one for processing the most orders for the month of September. So that kicks the idea that she doesn't do her work, but she still out rightly sleeps during work hours. But in her defense, AT&T West doesn't have as many orders we SouthWest does since we are doing more then one state.

On the award side of this story, I got two for September. One for having an 80% issue rate. They use a different word on the award. It just means that 80% of all the orders I did, were done right and produced a sale for allconnet and AT&T. I hope I can keep it up since I don't really know how I did it. I just did what I was suppose to do. The next award I got was for being present and on time for the whole month. I seems that once you call in and let them know that you are late, it doesn't count against you. I only call when it's not my fault I was running late. Like the time I waited for 40 mins for a bus to get me from New Castle to town.

The other thing that I may have to apologize for, but mostly just clear up was that thing I said about Lynn making her kid use bath soap to wash the dishes. It wasn't bath soap, it was clothes watching power. That is a bit better, when we were growing we use to use the blue soap that we used to wash our clothes with to wash the dishes. I'm not even sure if we really had "dish liquid" back then.

Lets see, yesterday was Friday the 13th. And for the number of things that could go wrong, most of them didn't. One I got to work on time. Slightly early even. We got paid, but mine came with a flaw that I didn't know that turned my rather up beat day into a more less happy one. I worked for 2 hours over time. If anything I expected it to plug the hole left behind by the taxes and such they had to take out. But I didn't. It seems that the two times that I was late and didn't call in because it was no one fault by mine while I was late, it was taken out of my pay. I wasn't mad or upset, I just less happy. At least I was still feeling better than the day before when I was trying not to throw up and was starving for most of the day.

Also on Friday, we had a small meeting about our punching in and out. Most of us thought that he didn't have to make such a big deal about it, but since we could be fired over it, he more or less had to I guess. Oh well.

I lugged three tupper ware to work to wash them since I had to bring them home that night. I packed clean clothes so I wouldn't have to show up at work wearing the same thing I wore on Friday. I bugged me sometimes when I did that. But now that I'm thinking about it, I don't think that I really did since most of the time I wore the ones that I washed when I was over here.

George came over on Wednesday night. I met him at the port, and he got a ride me up to the house. He is Lynn's. The girls in the bus thought he was mine and I heard about it when I went to work the next day. When I told him that he was my cousin’s, they said I could borrow. Borrow?!?!!! I do not borrow. I own. You are mine or you are not. I don't like sharing. And I told them so. What is the point if they aren't yours???

Well I was living on buss fare and two packets of noodles for two days. I took of $20 to put $10 on my phone since I was out, but that $20 had to be saved to get home this weekend.

Today Nika got all dressed up in that new dress Jhodie got her at the shop in Nevis two weeks ago, to go to church. They were suppose to go last weekend, but Jhodie wasn't feeling well.

I have to get up and go take a shower, so we can go out later, but I don't know how much later, and it can't be too much later since the town is starting to shut down now. It's 1pm, half the places are already closed by now. Ya, to have a whole day of Saturday shopping would be nice since things in Nevis cost more then here.

Oh, I think it's time we got a new water heater. It went odd on us at the end of last year I thing, but now something happened and I hear that Peter might have helped, but I'm not sure and now, just really hot water comes out of it. It was too hot for Nika to take a bath this morning.

Well, as you see, I changed the site again. One reason being, I switched to the new beta version of blogger, and I couldn't keep the one I made. But I was able to keep most of it. This was the original layout that it was before I tweaked it. I have my links and I just added a new one, I held on to my banner even thought it sticks out. I may get around to getting a new one around Christmas time that matches the new site better. I have my ticker, I'm glad I didn't loose that. I would have to guess at a new number again by the time I got another counter.


I missed my Friday night line up on SciFi Channel. *not happy* the most I saw was about 30 or so mins of Battle Star Galactica. I saw nothing else. First, my sister made me watch a movie that I downloaded for all of us last weekend. Then I fell asleep while trying to watch the re-run of the line up.

Ok, I'm going to get a new ep of Bleach and maybe xxxHolic then try and take a bath.

See ya. *grin*