December 28, 2017


Every day it gets colder when I have to go out,

I really don't want to go, but the nurse will  be somewhat upset with me if she had to reschedule me again.


I'm going, I'm going.

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December 26, 2017

When I'm sick, I'm sick.

I was a fool for trying to go to work today, nevermind leave the house.

I was just about bed ridden for three days with body racking coughs.

The pic above is proof of my expelled flem and mucous from my body during those three-ish days.

I will try again to work tomorrow. I have meds, a bit of a day of more rest, and a short work day. 11-3.


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December 22, 2017

I liked it.

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I got my new glasses. I was told that they would be ready next week, but I got a call last night saying they were there already.

So I told them, very quietly, that I would come for them today before I start work at 10:30. Quietly because I lost my voice and trying to talk hurt.

I have a chest cold and a sore throat. I was hoping to recover my voice today, but that lasted all of an hour. And a slow hour at that. 

As for my glasses. I have to get use to the weight and this new smooth bifocals thing with blurry sides.

Now I'm in a movie theater. I wanted to watch justice league, but it's not playing. Neither is avengers. So I picked the last Jedi. But I had an hour till I started.

Now I fear that I have picked another long movie.

Ok. Got to go now.


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December 19, 2017

Eye Exam

Hello There.

After work today I went to have my eyes checked and get new glasses. I was there on time, but I wasn't seen for almost an hour. Then I had to sit at 6 different machines that checked all kinds of things with my eyes. Then I got the see the eye doctor after a very delayed bathroom trip.

She asked why I was there today. I guess if I really thought about it, I could have come up with more than one answer. But since I had a real reason myself, I was saved from making any kind of smart comment. I told her that either my vision has gotten worst or I needed the bifocals that I didn't get last time.

So my prescription was updated/changed to something a bit stronger, at least for my reading. I guess my distance one is unchanged. So, I went for progression lens. I had to get the bifocals. I almost didn't get them because of the coast, but I got a payment plan for the total of $525. The extra $25 is 'insurance' for my frames for one year.

Now in case you got your glasses for more than $500, my price was that low, including exam, because I used my insurance to cut some of the cost and I didn't get fancy on the frames and nothing else was added to my lenses. I would have liked scratch resistance. But after ending up at $525 and under pain of crippling interest rates if I miss a payment of $89 for the next 6 months, I didn't want to know what that would cost me and maybe temp me further down a path I didn't want to find myself.

So, where are my glasses? If you have gotten such glasses, you would know that they are done at some lab somewhere. So I won't see my new glasses for a week. I tried on a few different frames, but I liked the feel of the first one she gave me better than the others. I just kinda wish there wasn't any 'bling' on the sides.

After there I went to change into my cold weather clothes then I remembered the frames that I paid for way back when got a bad prescription. So I went back to ask them how much it would cost to use my frames. That knocked off maybe $50. She also said something about seeing what kind of frames they were, so I'm taking them to show her this week.

This week I also have a shift that starts at 8 am. I can't do it. I know. Most of you have never had a job that didn't start after 8am, but I would have to be up 4 hours before that to get to work on time. Personally, I can't do it. I'm a night person. I rather work late than come in early. It tires me out too much. I'm falling asleep on the bus now because I am up for work 4 hours ahead every day for work.

So, I have to call Britney in a few minutes so she can change the 8am to 10am. I may or may not keep all my hours, but it can't be helped.

Just when I started to get serious about starting to pay down my amazon card I give myself another bill. But I have to see. Oh, I can't find my pay card either. I put a hold on it as I waited for it to show back up again, but it hasn't. I just know that when I request a new card I'm going to find it. But I have to because I can't move my pay from there to my other bank account until I do.


December 17, 2017


I came over, picked a seat at the bar. Ordered my meal clearly, and even interrupted her when she was placing the order to tell her no butter on the bun.

I then waited for her to come back to tell her that I was coming back so I wouldn't loose my seat.

I came back and my dear was gone. Along  with my lemon water. And then as I sit down a lady showed up with the wrong order. The only thing I recognized on the plate was the sweet potato fries.

Now I have everything.


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December 14, 2017

I felt it falling...

That stuff is back again. But they cut my Thursday shift so I don't have to deal with it.

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December 09, 2017

This is almost the exact view from my kitchen window

And I was mistaken. I don't have work tomorrow after all.

I have work Monday then off Tuesday. Then work for the rest of the week.

I heard it may snow again on Tuesday too.

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The sun sets too early

Well, the snow is still falling...barely. One of those snow trucks came by. So the streets will not be and have not been a problem. But I still have to deal with sidewalks to get to work tomorrow.

Yep, I got work. At least it will be 10 degrees warmer. Yeah... 40 degrees. As a high. I know I won't feel it.


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Can you tell?

It's snowing. I just woke up. Officially. 😊

Going to make myself an egg breakfast

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December 07, 2017

It's a sad day

... When you are looking for lemon grass and the person you ask for help has to look it up on their phone. 😶

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Just missed all the buses

... So it may be a while before I can get out of this 30 degree weather we are currently having. With wind gusts.

Did I ever tell you that I despise the cold/winter?

I so do.

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December 02, 2017

Sales, Sales, Sales.

This is may be the only time I post something like this... well, maybe not. But, this may be the first time I'm posting something like this.

I have to get more comfortable with marketing myself. I know why it's so hard. I'm not use to seeing much about me that is worth 'selling'. Yes, even my photos and fractals despite thinking that I have some very good ones. 

Anyway, here I go.


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November 29, 2017


Yesterday I was suppose to leave at 5:30 but they sent me home at 4:30. Now it's the other way around. Walking out now. Tomorrow it's suppose to be 3:30. Lets see what happens 😊.

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Stuffing update

The good news.

I did it! Last night.

First, I forgot my card in my other skirt, so I asked my sister to get me one on her way back from her convention in Manhattan on Sunday. When I realized that she was at the convention, I didn't think she would or could get any, so I went to Shoprite. As I'm about to walk into the building she calls and tells me that she got it. So I get her some other things. I get home, cook something as as I'm heading into my too she comes home.  I'm too tired to make the stuffing again.

Monday, I think, the buses were running odd. I'm sent to the fitting room. I was suppose to go home at 5:30 and get the stuffing done. Nope. I didn't leave until 6:30. Then I get home to find my sister making bread pudding.  She wasn't happy with her last stab at it, so she went at it again. I just let her have the kitchen.

Tuesday, that was yesterday right? This is why I should be making an entry every day. Anyway. Yesterday, I was put back at the cash register. I got in a little early, so I stopped to talk with my friend at Coldstone which ate into my time to buy and eat breakfast so, I ate my yogurt quickly before clocking in and starting work.

Because of this, now leads me to actually asking about my break. At first it didn't look like I was going to get one, but I was allowed to leave an hour early because I was suppose to get one and by this time it was too late for me to have one.

Yeah! So for sure tonight I make the stuffing. I even caught the express bus right to Newark, so I could get my body oil from rite aid.

I get home and I get it done. 😁 It came out really well. We had some with the "pasta" my sister cooked when she got home. But most of it was currently being given to the girl from upstairs that has been bugging me fir two years to make her some more. 😊

Ok. Almost at work now. I may or may not look this over for typos later. We shall see.


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November 27, 2017

An extra hour

I was suppose to finish at 5:30 pm today. But I was asked to stay till 6 since they had no coverage. 

Why? Haven't a clue. So I stayed till 6. Then one person showed up when it should have two since both of us were leaving. Or at least suppose to be leaving.

The other girl called to say she would be fifteen minutes late. I didn't lay eyes on her until half past.

So now I'm going home to make some stuffing and watch the movie Warcraft. 😊

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November 20, 2017

Still a 46 DD

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Ok... But I got a 44DD so it doesn't get too slack after a few times if wearing and washing. 😎


A dressy top?

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I think I look way better in the pic than I do in the flesh in this outfit. Which is odd since I've been saying for years, decades even, that I look better in the flesh than in my pictures.

Go figure. Oh, I already own the tights. I came in here for bras and I'm looking at tops for my trip back to Florida.

I only leave my house for work and on ny way back from work I go to the store and stuff if there is time. And for work I have to wear Tommy brand or wear something that could pass as such. So no real point to buy other clothes for other things

I may post other picks that I have here. As for this one. Not sure if I will get it.


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November 16, 2017

At Applebee's...again.


I have an hour's break so I'm at Applebee's for lunch. I haven't been here in weeks.

I was tempted to get a jamba juice and go find a tuna sandwich or salad. But I decided to come here when I saw how empty it was.

Then I actually looked through the menu and got something new. This will be the second time I have gotten something other than my veggie burger and sweet potato fries.

I knew I had the money so I went for it.

I actually wanted to post something since Monday, but once I wrote it out in my heady my body just didn't feel like doing it.

That is what has happened to alot of entries for my blog here.

So what happened Monday? I had an appointment to see the nutritionist. That was a little more of a fuss than I thought it would have been.

I was about 45 mins late. She didn't call me and then left ... for something. I thought her lunch. By the time she came back and with her friend ND I think her lunch I had been waiting 2 &1/2 hours. Since she came in with a friend I gave her 30 mins to eat and talk. Then I went and knocked on her door.

I was very polite about the whole thing. I asked if she would have time to see me today.

Then then said that she saw everyone she was suppose to and started checking her paperwork.

She then asked me to wait outside again. Fine. I stood outside. I was so tired of sitting. When I had first gotten there she had called me without knowing it and saw me. So somewhere in here head she at least knew I was there.

On her way out is an odd time for her to have on human blinders.

So she calls me back in like 3-5 mins. She said that she was sorry. Even her friend said the same thing as she walked past me.

She asked for my paperwork as in I may not have it for some reason. Then she weighed me. I'm down another 10lbs. I felt like i might have gained back some weight, but if I did I'm still less than the last time I was weighed.

Then there was the questions about what I eat or had eaten in the last 24 -48 hours.

Off course I would have to see this lady the weekend we got pizza. But over all she liked my over all diet, she just wanted me to eat less bread and pasta and I think she said rice, but my rice isn't going anywhere.

Bread may be a tall order too, but I will try.

Then she said that I should hah some kind of work out type activity because my body will get use to the moving I'm doing now and adjust and I could start gaining weight again.

I told here I had feet issues or I would be using this stepping machine I /we hot. So off hand like she tells me about this place where I can learn to swim. I agreed and told her I was thinking of doing that.

And for some reason she didn't full understand. I expected her yow give me something about the place or at least a price of paper with their Nam on it when I told her I didn't know where that was.

She then gave this odd speech about how she is just there to ... I don't know what anymore, because when I told here again that I was game for the swimming thing by didn't know where it was she gave me this combo answer of how I could look it up and she would write down the name for me.

She wrote nothing down, but went gave me a meal plan of what I could eat. I laughed at it.

Ok. Got to go. Lunch is over.

As for what I got. They said veggies, I saw shredded carrots and 3 small bits of broccoli with sweet peppers.


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November 10, 2017

The day I miss NYC..again

Trying to find lox in Shoprite and no one knows what you are asking about.

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November 03, 2017

One of my last and first purchases this paycheck.

I'm getting some steamed dumplings and veggie fried rice right now.

My pay was about $100. I tho k that is from just before my vacation.  Then after I got back I got alot of holes in my work schedule. I had about 5 days off last week and it looks like it may happen again in another week.

So odd. But they can change it in a few days. They have before, so I won't be surprised if they do again.

Ok. Food's up.


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October 30, 2017

Not home yet.

I spent too much time looking at shoes after work, but then I was able to meet with my sister at Penn station.

We then went to Shoprite to get my fix of fruit and yogurt. I ended getting a little more than I intended.

Now we are at Sonics getting"dinner". Well I am. My sister isn't hungry.

Ok, going now.


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October 29, 2017

See the rain?

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Rain, Rain

I think I has been raining for almost 24 hours now, and it will be raining on my way in to work too.

I had almost a week off, due to us not making day for a while. I think it's a little messed up. If we don't don't "make day" constantly, the store owes the company money and shifts/work days are cut.

I was actually thinking that I would get some writing done, but the bad chair and the cold weather which is setting in, help snuff out my will to write.

I actually got around to opening the files and seeing where I left off and copying a few bits into it, but I had no drive to continue.

I had a feeling this might happen. I did so much to get the rough draft for the book, that somewhere in my head, I think it got labeled as finished even thought it clearly isn't.

Maybe I should stop thinking about it. Easier said than done. I've been thinking about my two incomplete stories and one I was reminded about that I haven't started at all.

And maybe I should post this on my other blog that is about my stories.


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October 20, 2017

I don't know if I'm a lier or if I saved a situation.

There was no way for me to meet my friends on this trip even though I tried with the first one and ran out of time, money and needing to actually feel like I was on vacation/holiday. 

The first friend understand and I told him I would just try another time. Then I realized I was being too ambitious considering how much time and money I had. So I was going to take a trip to just see each friend and spend the rest of my time here with my sister. It wasn't so bad. It was cold in the convention center and I ended up walking so much, that I just laid in bed the next day to let them heal up. I almost made it to the pool that I didn't know was there until I looked out. Not that I even owned a swimming suit. But it was nice to think I could have floated out there for a bit if I did.

So I started to think about the next time I could try this. And I remembered how someone at work said that they were talking their birthday off. So I think I could do the same and do this around mid January. I hate winter and I would get away from it for a week or so, and I will book well in advance for a cheap flight and then the bus to go down to the Keys. 

So then I did the scariest thing so far this trip and it beats out sleeping on the street in Atlanta waiting for the 8am bus to Orlando. I called my friend in the Keys. My poor heart. That statement alone must clue you in to the fat that I don't just think of him as a friend. Would he remember me. Would he want to see me. 

I believe the answer is yes. He honestly sounded happy to hear from me. He said he would make time to see me. I was so nervous that once I told him that I was thinking of coming down around my birthday after asking how he weathered the hurricane, I said goodbye without leaving him my number. So now that I'm siting in greyhound station waiting for my bus, called to leave my number and he answers the phone and I'm a wreak again at hearing him not to mention that he called called me something endearing like Dear or Sweets. Too surprised that he answered to note what he called me other than he called me something sweet and I could hear the smile in his voice as he talked with me and took my number. He once again confirmed when I was coming and I melted and rocked on my chair at his intrest. 

Next will be my friend in Milton. It just about goes without saying, but depending on what happens in the Keys, will dictate what happens in Milton. 

At least now I have more time to make myself plan how to get to and from each place. Maybe instead of going through Mobile, Alabama like I was trying to do for my friend in Milton, I will come from the right this time. As for the Keys, greyhound can't be the only way in. If it is, maybe I just get as close as I can and he can come pick me up. 

At least it is all possible now. I all I have to do is survive Black Friday through new years. I think I'll put in for that week when I get back. As for my Milton trip, I'm thinking about 4 months after my Keys trip would be a good time. Maybe 5 months. I still have bills to payoff and I really don't think I would have gott n them to where I want them before then. 

So. How was my trip(s) over all? Not bad. Once I stopped looking at it as a destination thing and a travel thing, it was mostly good. Could have done without sleeping outside, I survived. :)

I like FL even if people think they need to live in AC all the time. I liked the heat. I liked the sun and short buildings. I even saw a lizard. I didn't realize I hadn't seen one since I left home. It was a small little one. I like how you pay for the buses here and how parts of it is set up.

The transit people in NJ need to talk to other states and cities to improve themselves. I think I touched on that a bit with the pic I posted two days ago of the bus I took to meet up with my sister.

I was suppose to have oatmeal at the hotel, but I came down too late, so I had a chicken sandwich with fries instead 2 hours later. I got an apple and a muffin for later too. 

I think I will be queuing up in about 10 mins for my bus, but there is still a line there for another bus I think. If not, they started early. 


Look what is at our mall

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October 17, 2017

I am still not home yet. Yet!

Delays. Delays. Delays. And another delay for good measure.

Now. Now I'm heading to Newark. We skimmed the outskirts on our way to NYC so we are mostly back tracking to a place we were over an hour ago so I can get off greyhound once and for all.

I was suppose to be home since 2:30-ish this afternoon. I was going to defrost some ground turkey and make some chili with a boat load of veggies in it and make some vegan cornbread to go with it.

I would put back some of the stuff into the bathroom. Oh, I may not have said this, and of I did, I'm saying it again. The first reason for me going to FL was so our landlord could fix/repair /renovate our bathroom. I took my time to clear it out. Take out trash and even swept the floor knowing that they were going to be ripped up and what happens?

Nothing. NOTHING.

My sister called him the night before we were leaving to ask how things were going. We expected them to not be done and we would be using the bathroom upstairs.

But no. He says that he wants to deal with the people upstairs first. I thought that they had already moved out. But it seems like they have turned into squatters.

Fine, it makes sense, but he did not tell us this. He has our phone numbers. He lives below us. He should have said something.

Would I have still gone to FL? Maybe. Most likely. But I wouldn't have been dreaming of a new bathroom the whole time. It wouldn't have been a listed reason for the trip.

... (breathing)

So when I was told about our next and hopefully last delay getting to Newark, I left the line. I said I was going upstairs to pay for the 107 to take me home. But my fist stop was the bathroom. It was better than I expected. Then at the top of the escalator I saw something that reminded me that I had to buy a new power cord for my phone. The other one isn't working and my phone died on the way. I had to ask this guy who got on back in Baltimore if he had a charging cable I could use. Lucky for me he did.

That is how I have power now and when my brother called to chat. We are all bad at keeping in touch.

So, I spent $23 on a new power cord and went back down to wait for greyhound since already paid them to get me to Newark. I am now looking at the night time skyline of NYC as we head into Jersey.


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Now I'm hanging out here.

Don't know for how long.

Odd thing is, I was waiting to get off, after he woke us up and I fell back to sleep. I dreamed of Arish, Tanzie and some other girl I seem to know. We were at this out door thing. There were hundreds if not thousands of people there so we were surprised to see each other. Well Tanzie, the girl and I were. I just looked over at Arish were he was dancing.

Anyway, I found myself telling the girl that I was clean and only did something, in someway, once in a while. I had a feeling I was making a joke or talking about food, but it's starting to fade.

The shocking part was that Tanzie didn't believe me and just produced a handful of cobras and held them up as if daring me not to take a hit. I stood still and it looked like they were going to strike but didn't.

Then I woke up and realized everyone left me on the bus. I then spent about 5 mins trying to get inside since all the doors seemed to be locked, remembering that I had to get my suitcase and then trying to find it, in that order before coming inside and out of the cold.

So cold.

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Just getting back on the bus.

They say this will eliminate the other layover we were going to lave later.

We shall see.

I'm eating my snicker bar.


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I looked up where I was

So. North Carolina. It's cold here. My body was so ready to stay in FL where it's warm.

Did I mention that I saw squirrels in FL? Yep, they beat me in moving down there first.


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What is missing in this picture?

I'm not even sure what state I'm in right now.

We were woken up for a safety check that he cancelled or delayed since we were 20 mins out from this stop.

I'm pretty sure it was because he smelled smoke. Someone was smoking o the bus.

And there is a guy back where I am who doesn't own or want to use ear buds so I'm hearing all the stuff he's playing on his phone.


I feel like I should eat something, but at the same time I really don't think I should. I was going to walk around for a bit, but we seem to be in the middle of houses. I don't know how they worked that one out.

I have another 12 - 14 hours to go before I get off in NJ. Oh, unlike Megabus, everytime we stop, everyone has to get off. Upside, you get to stretch, on the downside, you are woken up at 1 am

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October 13, 2017

This is a bus

This is what our long buses in NJ should look like. Three sets of doors and they can print passes on the bus. ON THE BUS!
Yes, I made it to FL. How I'm heading down to mu sister. The mega bus stop was 13 miles away from where she is.

So it looks like I will be spending about 2 days in FL with her. I'm not even going to bother trying to see my friend in the Keys.  I just don't have enough time.

I will just dedicate a trip to each of them. 😏


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Guess where I am not?

I'm not on the bus going to Orlando. I missed I. I somehow picked the longest running movie to watch, then get off at the wrong stop on the train. So when o got to where I should I have been I was at the wrong end of the block and looking at the tail lights of my bus leaving without me.

One person said that she has missed her bus with Megabus before, and they let her get on the next one. So I'm waiting for the next one. At 8 am.

If they say no, I'm going back to NJ on greyhound.

At least I"m not the only one camping out down here. And no, I'm not including the homeless.

My sister has had her own misadventures in FL without me. But I wong go into it now since I need to save power on my phone. I'm going to turn it off and read from my iPad.

Only 6 hours to go. 😳

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October 12, 2017


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I packed too much clothes.

The only how I get to wear all of what I have is if I just stay with Phillys and she will make me change mu clothes, or I get to Key Largo and my friend there wants me to stay with him and he pays for a flight back for me to get to work on time.

Why do I bring this up. I'm not in Orlando yet. Heck, I just got to Atlanta. And my connecting bus is at midnight. I tried to get one sooner, but there seems to only be two bus people in town. Greyhound and mega bus. Greyhound wants more money for a much longer ride time.

I couldn't do it. I needed to walk about. So I booked one of the lat 5 tickets for megabus.

So I have some webcomic work to take care off then I'm exploring. I got a day pass so getting around shouldn't be an issue as far as paying fare.


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Hey. 😊

Well, my "vacation" has started. I waited a little late to book my first two buses to make sure I would make them.

I was hungry on the first one but I had a fruit cup with me. When we pulled into Washington almost an hour late, I didn't have much time to use the bathroom and find something to eat, so once I did find food, I brought it back with me to wait for my next bus.

I was still able to be impressed by DC as we were leaving. I would like to see more of it and in better light.

We then had our first stop between here and Atlanta. Richmond VA. That was just to gain and loose a few passengers.

Now we are stopped at this .. What is this?  A Travel Center. I took a screen shot, but it went tot he top and I can't move it. Oh well.

So, I didn't get anything to drink back in D.C. so I got off to get some water and got two juices two. Then as I get back to the bus the driver starts to hand out bottled water. Great.

Now we are off again. It was just a 20 mins stop. Next sop, I will get something hot to eat, or just get up to stretch my legs.


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October 09, 2017

This Saturday past

So, I thought my day was going well and when I left to catch the 59 bus into Elizabeth I saw this little thing sitting at the bus stop. I don't know if I noticed it before or after I saw a guy driving by slow down to look at it.

I didn't get a chance to take a pic of the side he saw though. My bus showed before I could even start to walk around the car to that side. But I did get a look at it.

It looked like he had that famous Asian wave picture in white and sliver on that side. I hope to se it again so I could take a pic to show you.

Then, when I was going to send these photos to Blogger I saw that I had a voice message. I didn't expect it to be much since my sister normally wouldn't she had called me in the house phone when I didn't pick up my cell.

It was work. They were asking where I was. I was convinced that my sift was from 5 till 11 pm that day. But I checked the photo I took of my hours and I was wrong. I was suppose to start at 1:30 and work till 9.

So two calls later I ended up going in to work for the time I thought I was going to be working. But we a few of us were sent home a little early because we didn't make day.

Saturday we missed day by a mile and a half. But considering how much they were asking, I wasn't surprised. We did better on Sunday, but still didn't make day either. 

Speaking of yesterday. My shift was 12 till 7pm. I got cash rep, which I was grateful for since that meant I would leave almost on time, but I helped out a bit as I was waiting to be cashed out and I think, since I didn't say anything, that they forgot I was suppose to leave at 7. I was just going to help out the girl who was stuck there cleaning up cash rep by herself until I was cleared to leave, but I ended up staying 2 more hours instead.

I tried to see the upside but when she asked me to do something after I kept seeing others leave, I was too tired to saw what I want, but upset enough to say that I stayed back to help.

Then I almost forgot right away that I even said anything since I didn't saw everything that wanted to say, but she had a right to take it the way she did even if I didn't understand why at the moment.

We aren't really friends, but I don't want her to be upset with me, so I'm going to apologize to her I see her next.

Almost at work. Got a late start today. Tried from yesterday, as you might imagine, but I still made it here early if not very on time.


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October 05, 2017

Spending Spree.

I'm sure by a lot of other people's markers I did no such thing, but for a person making as much as I do, I sure did.

I shopped at work before leaving on Monday. I spent about $25.

I then paid to get on the bus. $2.75 I think. But I was prepared for that. I stopped off at Cold Stone's next door to break a $20 that I got the week before.

Once I was in town I made my way to Penn Station. I actually decided to walk down Market St since my feet were pretty well off from just standing at Cash Rep that day. Penn Station got $58 I think for a monthly bus pass. I don't even know since it's an expense I have to pay.

Then I decided to do a little grocery shopping. I tried to go to Whole Foods, but I ended up going to ShopRite instead due to where the bus I jumped on dropped me off at. I kept myself in check and even put back a box of pasta and some spaghetti sauce. I think I made it out under $30.

Now, my upcoming 'vacation'. It starts on the 11th and I'll be back about 17th. No idea about my internet connection during that time. But considering how often I update here, you won't miss me at all.

There are two people in that state that I want to see, but one is further away than I thought, and I still have to look up the other one. They lived in Key West. Yeah. Heck, I should start looking at how much Amtrack cost's to get down there. I was and still is, thinking about taking the bus, but someone said that the train may cost the same. I'll see.


October 02, 2017

Guess What?

It's October.

News flash right? I haven't bought my October bus pass and the driver for the 24B told me my pass wasn't good.

It took me a while to understand what he was saying. But a min later a 24A showed up and I decided to try my luck. It was that or miss it completely and be late. Get an uber and spend more than I wanted to this week, or miss this bus, get change and miss another bus and who knows when I get in to work.

My luck, kinda, held. The driver didn't call me on I. Now to see if I can get to Penn station with this pass after work so I can get a new one.


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I Ran!

I didn't think I would catch the 59 bus since it would show up about 4mins after I checked the bus text, but I still stopped to locked the top lock on my apt door.

Anyway, I still hoped that something, someone, held it up for a few seconds since I knew it would just fly by as I'm nearing the corner.

And it did, but I flagged it down thinking that if bus driver was kind he would think I was close enough to wait for me. I didn't think it was going to happen, but he did stop, and I ran for it.

I was about to praise his soul when I saw someone get off the bus. Ok, so he may not have stopped for me, but then again he might have. All I know is that I'm on time for work.

I was a little surprised that my feet let me run. I have looked at a number of buses  go by because I knew I couldn't make my legs move into a run. But today I just took off and I did it without any pain pills in my system.

So, it looks like I may be having tuna again for breakfast and lunch today. I could try and get a subway sandwich between buses since I have to change over to the 24 but I have to be at work at least 15 mins before we open our doors at 10 for a meeting. So a little less too to be late.

It's almost time to switch.


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September 30, 2017

Messed up times.

Besides the cold that I'm protecting myself from, do you see at the bottom that says what time I start work and when it ends?

Well I didn't. I clocked in at 1 and no one said other wise when I clocked in. And to boot, I have been thinking and telling people that my shift ends at 9.

Great, just great. So I desired to treat myself to Applebee's instead of a jamba juice to go with my subway sandwich that I misses the 24B to get to morning. I'll just eat it on my him tonight.

Yeah, life. All in all things are ok. I've been on cash rap, since the indecent with the $38. I was zero all but once. That day it was like 96 cents off.

My sister and her daughter showed up and stayed with us fir about 4 days I think. They brought the heat with them. We had a daytime high of 91 degrees. Then on the day they left, it dropped to 68 I think. Now I'm shivering in sub 60 degree weather.

Ok, lunch is here.

Later. I'll try and catch up soon.

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September 20, 2017

I actually took it to work

I'm really"studying" for the citizenship test. I took the book to read on the bus ride there and back.

Now I'm on my way home. Not really looking forward to the walk up the side of the park that close to midnight, but I do need the walk today.

Work was good, a little slow by the time I came in, but we made day anyway. I might need to explain that. Each day someone or something, decides how much we should make that day, bases on how much we made a year ago on that same day. I don't know why.

So if we reach and past that amount, we made day. If we didn't, we didn't make day.

So that's it since I'm not going to go into anymore details about it and I need to read.

Later.. Oh. BTW. Orville is a good show.

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September 10, 2017

It's written up now

Yesterday I was called to the 'office' to sign a paper saying that I lost $38 and change. Yeah, I know I said it was $33, but I was apparently wrong. It's $38 and change.

So I was officially written up that my register was short this amount. The paper said that I get three of these things and I could, but more than likely be fired. But there was a part in there that said something about 'within a reasonable period'. So we are expected to make mistakes, just not very often.

I even asked if I could just pay back what I lost. She said no. But I was able to write how I think I was able to be short before signing it. And I was told, I would only be written up if I was short by $10 or more.

So I just have to keep doing what I'm doing, and I should be fine.

Oh, I never said how I thought I was short.

Well, that day I didn't get a break, completely my fault it seems. I'm suppose to remind the managers when I'm suppose to go on break. So, I think I was more tired than I thought, because the next day when I was at the register, I caught myself looking at the wrong part of the screen to give back change. It has happened before, but I guess that day I didn't catch it.

So I was in the fitting room on Saturday. There was one surprise, but I don't think I can talk about it. There was one other thing. I caught a shoplifter. I didn't confront them, I just saw that they ditched a sensor in the fitting room and told a manager who followed them. I think they got the item back, but I didn't follow up.

I also realized that after being on the cash register for about a week, your feet are near normal again and then you start reliving the pain that made you dread waking up. The whole ball of my foot and toes are back to feeling swollen and in pain. I was starting to think that things were starting to get better for me. When it turns out that it was just me not running myself ragged in the fitting room.

Also, my hours for this week was changed twice and the second time I had to work on the day I have to go to immigration to have a background check. It's on the 14th. They came around to tell each of us when they changed it the second time. I told her that I couldn't work that day and told her why. She said to just make sure that I told her before either of us left so she could put it in this book.

I did find her at the end of my shift. I had the letter on me to show her so she would know that I wasn't lying to just not work. So I got back the day, but she didn't get me any other day to make up for it. So I'm only going to be working twice this week. Which I think kinda works out. I couldn't hardly walk today and someone is coming tomorrow to look at the bathroom. Our land lord is having it fixed.

He still doesn't want us to have washer and dryer never mind just a washer, so my sister found something that he would agree to. A portable washer. She just ordered it today. It will be here in a few days. I think It will be here on the 13th. I'm not sure. We are also getting some things to dry the clothes on. Those should be here Tuesday.

Other than that, not much else is happening. Oh, my half sister and someone else is coming down from Canada and is staying with us for a few days to a week. And in a month we are going to FL. I'm going for about a week since I'm taking the long way there and back. By bus. I hope to see two friends that I have down there, but with the hurricane, I'm a little worried about one of them. He lives in Key West. I was thinking that I could just show up and say hi, but I may have to call ahead. If anything just to see how he fared the storm and to see if he is still living at the address I have for him.

Well, later. :)

September 06, 2017

My day oddly started out well, and ended... oddly.

I got out of the house on time to get to work at 12:30 today.

I took out the trash, walked down the hill and the bus was like 4 mins late, but so what. I got a little sun and considering how little I get these days, I soaked it up.

I got to work in great time. I went up stairs and debated what to get for breakfast since I just had some apple sauce before leaving the house hoping to get a sandwich at subway since I was starting to get tired of eating tuna fish sandwiches. I had visions of fries today. So firstly I got my new Jamba Juice flavor Caribbean Passion. Normally I have Green & Ginger but I decided to branch out yesterday and I really liked it.

So there I was, sipping my Jamba Juice as I stood in the food court trying to decide if I should get fries from Nathan's, Beger King or Poppy's. I chose Poppy's and got a small side of green beans to eat with the other half of my tuna sandwich during my break.

So yes, I did get a tuna sandwich again because when I got off the 59 bus to get my subway sandwich, the 24 bus showed up and you don't turn down a 24 bus when it shows up because, by the time the next one shows up, you will be late for work.

So I had seasoned fries with my first half of my tuna sandwich in the food court. I read a bit of a story on my phone, then I went downstairs and even got to use the bathroom before going out on the floor to meet with the SGM to find out where I was set to work for the day. Some of us have no clue where we will be working until we show for work.

Today, like yesterday, I worked at cash rep. On the cash register.

So I'm going about my day, greeting people, ringing up sales. Giving out a few discounts, getting a few people to sign up for the Tommy club and I think every thing is going fine until the manager started to count out the registers on my side. We have two sets of registers and I was the only one on my side. When I started it was at least three of us, then come 5:30 or so, it was just me.

First, he was going to do my register, but then decided to do all the others around me, then do mine. Which is odd, since I have seen and been told that you had to be there when your register is being counted out. As in there is something in there that tells them how much money should be in the register and they count up what is actually there.

Yesterday I was perfect. The day before I was off by 40 cents or something. Which ok. I may have given out a ten cent instead of a five cent and some how a few other cents were handed out in error. Fine. The first time I rang up every I was short by $4 and some cents. I could have had a few stuck together bills. I don't know. Heck, I wasn't even under. I had more money than I should have I think. And they didn't have me ring up again for months.

So I don't know how on earth I lost $33 today. No clue. I was being so careful. I was even repeating and recounting what I was given and what I was handing to them. I will accept I'm short cents. Heck, even a few dollars, but not $33. I don't know how that happened. I'm grateful that he didn't just look at me like he never saw me before or thought that I was hiding something. But he said it will go down as a mark against me until it was sorted. I can't fight it, I don't know how. There was a slight mention that he will watch the video, to cover bases and try to figure out where it went wrong. I'm grateful that the only thing I can remember that I might have down wrong, was when I gave a student a 10% discount along with a $5 off coupon he brought with him from another store. I didn't really realize that I'd done it until I had swiped the second one.

So that, the $33 not the double coupon thing, bugged me a little for the rest of the night. But if it came down to it, they will see that I didn't steal the money and they will see where it went wrong and I'll just keep trying to keep my count at 0 like I did the day before. And if it came down to it, I don't mind giving them the money myself to put it behind me if they really had to account for that money.

That didn't so much as colour the rest of my day/night, but it did mark the turning point. Next? I didn't get a break. I was on my feet at cash rep for 7 hours straight. One of the new managers came to tell me to go on break as I was being counted out, but the manager said no, or not yet because of something. I was like 'fine, I'll go on break late'. I was then sent to continue cashing people out on the other side but just one credit since I was using a register that someone else rang up on for most of the day. It's a way to keep people from messing with other people's count at the register.

I asked another manager about my break when I had 30 mins left in my shift since at this point, they could send me home or I would work an extra 30 mins or they could send me on my break, have me log back in for like 10-20 mins, then have me log out and go home.

She was leaning towards letting me go home, but they were short up front so she asked that I say until this other girl came back from her break. So I stayed and rang for another 30 mins. I was a bit more tired than I would have liked, but I hadn't eaten anything, never mind drank anything for almost 7 hours. I was reading a few numbers wrong, but I always corrected myself and I had a good laugh with the two people I did that with. Just twice which is good. I went a little slower. so I said the right thing for the rest of the time.

Then at 7:30 I think a girl who wasn't ringing before was now ringing so and it was time for me to leave, so I called a manager over and he let me go without counting me out because I took card transactions.

So, I said good night, feeling a bit better, but just tired. I even laughed at a joke someone made when I was leaving. I put back on my hand brace, picked up my sandwich, got my umbrella because it was suppose to rain tonight and went to get another Jumba Juice so I could sit and eat my sandwich and green beans with something nice to drink.

By the time I made it outside, sipping my drink, it felt slightly warm and there in front of me was a big red moon. then one step later I felt a drizzle and saw some buses all the way over there. So In stead of sitting down and resting my feet while I ate, I walked past the movie theater to the bus stop. But why would one of them wait for someone to show up and ride them when the exact same bus just pulled off in front of it. Nope. Two buses, of the same number, pull off together. Nor did they even think that the downpour that slowly built as I walked with them, with full hands was worth waiting for.

So I get to the small shelter for the bus stop, with an ever smaller bench thinking that I'm going to end up eating as I get rained on as I see lighting in the sky as I take a bite of my sandwich. I looked up again after a bite more or two, and saw that the moon was now hidden by clouds and the rain? No longer falling.

At this point, my luck seemed to have been turning again. There was a bus sitting there, all dark. The person I found there when I sat down, told someone on the phone that the bus has been there for over 10 mins. She got a ride and left. A few mins later, it started up and it became the 24B bus that I wanted.

I read my book on the bus until my sister called me after most of what she was saying got lost in the noise around me and the reason for calling me no longer a thing, I got her to get me some donuts from Whole Foods. She was already there.

I had to walk up along the park on Meeker Ave and I sang most of the way. I got home before my sister did and she made fuss that I didn't turn on any lights.

I'm having issues with my tv, but that is another post, but I do have it currently working, Let's see how long that will last.

I missed the payment for my BestBuy account so I got a late fee. I haven't had one of those in a while. 😓

My work shift for Wednesday is from 5 pm until 11 pm. If we close like we did tonight, then it won't be that bad. The place looked great compared to the last day nights.Which is why I stayed two extra hours on Sunday to help recover the floor in the men's department. Recover just means we cleaned up and made the place not look like a tornado landed in there.

Well, I need to sleep now. I was so tired when I woke up Tuesday that I over slept by an hour. Lucky me I had to be at work for 12:30.


August 26, 2017

The Process Has Begun

I finally sent off my paper work for my citizenship and a few days later I got an email and a text saying that they got my forms and then two days ago I checked my bank app and saw that they charged my credit card for the full $700 odd for processing.

Then today I got home and saw a letter from them asking to confirm my address and date of birth. I'm going to call the number tomorrow, but I'm sure I'll get some recording saying to call back during the Monday to Friday work week. A work week I clearly don't abide by.

I had to move the 'study sheets' that I made into a pdf way back when, onto my pad, so I can start going over them for when I had the interview and they ask me about often we have elections for senators and so on.


August 25, 2017

I'm Wearing White!

Something I hadn't really done since I was like 10 and wearing an old white dress that belonged to my mom to school before we had to wear uniforms. :)

Anything white that I wore was nothing but a magnet for dirt and stains.

Amazingly, I made it home just as white as when I left. :)

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August 15, 2017

We are going to be busy

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Yesterday I made it to the post office and sent off my application for citizenship. They last time I held it, I thought about not getting it just because of the state of this country, then I realized that because of how things are, I should get it. I do not need to find ICE agents anywhere near me. I don't have enough of anything to start over.


On my way to the post office I got a call to set up an appointment for my sleep apnea testing. That was a slight surprise since I thought the doctor's office already did that for me. Anyway, it's set for Thursday night. I don't have to be at work until 1pm on Friday. I'll ask them about the other appointment that I have a paper  for.


It feels like it has been a while since I had to be at work for 10am. I missed the 59 bus by a minute. It was a minute early and went on by as I was nearing the bottom of the hill.

Then I went down the side of the park to catch the 24 bus. But I was even further back when I saw the bus go by. I'm thinking it's just not my day, but not 5 minutes later the express shows up. I was starting to consider it a myth again and now I'm on it. 😁

Now I don't have to rush eating the sandwich that I will buy from a place in the mall.


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August 09, 2017

One of my morning disasters

So no music for me today.

My second disaster? I was suppose to come in for work for 11 but I thought it was 11:30 and even then the bus was so late, I was late for that too. 😞

But it's a slow day, and I'm on the happy side of things. 😁


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August 07, 2017

I only came for carrots and bread.

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Can I honestly still pass for a twenty something?

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Good news...

I'm still losing weight. 😊

Yeah, at the doctor's again. But I am told that I have to go toa all my other things. Like a mammogram, and pap smear, sleep apnea testing, nourishanist, and physical therapy. Then they will see about another round of blood work.

My pressure is a little high, but not by much. I'm little anemic. They said I was also pre diabetic, but all this is from that blood work I took a while back, not included my blood pressure. That they take every time I show up and this is the 4th time I think.

He did applaud me for the weight I was losing and said if I keep it up, the other things should go away too. And the next set of blood work will show that.

So, the whole thing that started this off, the icy hot, is just going to continuously hurt me until it completely out of my system in another 3 to 4 months.

I know, it's all my fault to have stopped moving be for I got this job. But to my credit, that is one of the reasons why I got a job, to make myself move again. I just think think all this pain and agony would go with it.

Because of that agony, I almost didn't come today, but I just couldn't flake on I and I thought that u might be able to get one of the others off my list too, if not set up appointments for them. But it's so late now, and I wanted to go buy some carrots to bake with the chicken.

Speaking of what goes in my mouth,, I have to lay off the Halls. 😒 They have too much sugar for me for how I have been using them. So now I have get some sugar free mints for me to suck on. My sister isn't going to like this. She has to stop taking as much too.

I pushed myself alot at work Saturday and Sunday. I felt like I was letting the pain wear me down and I didn't want to feel like I didn't want to be there, so I did cheer myself up a bit and getting my new shoes helped, but that doesn't take away the pain in my feet at the moment. I had to trap my aching feet into these cold weather boots because it is kinda cold and raining alot out there.

I also realized that I am little stressed about applying for citizenship. It's alot of money that I have to charge to my card and with what is going on with ICE lately, I don't feel so great now. But I will be finishing up the paperwork tonight so it can be mailed out tomorrow.

Ok. Later.

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July 24, 2017

Long time no chat

Today was interesting. There was the downpour that I lived through better than I did the last one. Partly die to me going back inside and putting on my rain boots that look like they were military issued.

So I got here after enjoying the one thing that I miss about them, other than being able to keep my feet dry, the none slipping feeling as I walked on uneven surfaces. Which is just about every step I take.

So I decided to keep them on FI the first half of my shift, mostly to just see if I can, but to give me a grip on my walking for the busy part of my shift.

So I get here, and soaked from the waist down again. Thank goodness I went back for my boots. Well, I sent some time in the bathroom under the hand dryer to speed things along. Then i stopped off at Coldstone to see that guy who quit us because he was going back to school and couldn't keep two part time jobs.

So I was there just starting to talk to him when I felt my phone start to ring. I pick it up and it said that missed a call from work. The place just 5 feet from me. I told him that maybe they they changed my start time from 11:30 to 11 or thought I was suppose to be there then. So I went over and clocked in just I case they changed my schedule on me. They do, do that.

So it turned out that they had taken the day from me, then called to ask if I could come in for 12 today. I then told her that I was scheduled for 11:30 till 8 today. She said that would work.

How odd that all worked out. If I had known I was off, I might have been at the doctor's instead. I had an appointment and didn't realize until I got a reminder phone call Friday.

Ok. I have to eat now. Dinner/lunch just shows up. I had to get a beef burger today. They were out of veggi patties.


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July 21, 2017

Just realized

I'm covering a short 4-ish hour shift for someone Toda since I had a four day stretch of no work.

But after I agreed to take it, my sister then books me for a dentist appointment about 6 hours earlier.

The problem with that? Outside of never being there before and it was really hot out today again? Nothing other than I was given the wrong stop to get off at.

But that is all over now. My face is becoming my own again, an I stopped at Applebee's to get something to eat before work, since all i had Toda was a bowl of cereal before I left the house around 10am.

Now I'm gaining new revelations. One, I'm going to have to eat quickly to make it to work on time since I have already been sitting here for over 30 mins...oh look it's here now.

The second thing? I just realized that I lost my Applebee's gift card that I got for being employee of the month.

Oh well.


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July 16, 2017

Sunday Outing

We had a quarterly meeting today.

It was Hawaiian themed. I had some fun this time around. Maybe it's because I feel like I belong there more than I did last time.

Over all, we are doing well. Just two things to brush up on and now we have this new customer care push. I hope that means we get more people in the fitting room. Heck, I would just like more fitting rooms, but I know that can't happen.

Oh, the store look of Tommy's is changing this month. I'm holding off true judgment until it's finished.

I also handed in a list of things that needed to be fixed in the fitting room today. I started it on Wednesday, but I didn't finish it, then I found it when I went back to work two days later, just to lose it for good and had to start back over. When I typed it up last night, I included some suggestions but once I heard that they were also going to do some changes in the fitting rooms, I realized that they might not have been needed. I'll see.

After that, I went to the movies. I found out that the movie place that I thought was so expensive wasn't really. It's $6 until noon every day. So I decided to watch Wonder Woman. Until I got there. The meeting ended at 11 and the movie didn't start until 1:30 or so. So I had to pick something else. So I ended up watching the new Transformer movie. Prime was one of the redeeming qualities of the past movie that allowed me to watch them.

With him gone most of the movie, I saw a host of things I didn't like. What is the deal with Merlin? At one point, I expected them to stop the story and show this modern guy who's excuse for having Merlin speak that way, was because he didn't like what was already there. But now, it goes through. Then we had more, 'hip' and 'gangsta' like bots which just grate on my nerves.

I never liked how they had them 'adopting' bad human mannerisms from the get go. Prime was the only one who still showed any real dignity. So I wasn't that surprised when I fell asleep before he made it back to earth. That, and I was up early to get to work, I was hungry and the room was very cold.

Once the movie was over, about 2 hours later, I went to complain about my new $40 blue tooth ear buds not working right. But since I tossed the receipt, they couldn't give me back a refund. Not that I asked for one. I was hoping for some kind of explanation, heck, some sign of interest in what I was saying might have been enough. Well, with my defective and expensive ear buds, I made a few stops at a few stores. Two to see about new skirts. One about some shoes and the eye wear place to see how much my new insurance would cover for a new pair of glasses.

Then when I was leaving I saw that I had gotten a voice mail from work while I was in the movie. I played it but didn't call back since I couldn't go back to work to that day. One, I was hungry. Two, I wasn't dressed for work and I wasn't buying a new top to work hungry. Three, I had to do something for my sister. She had given me her card to buy stuff for the house and the cake she has to make tomorrow.

Once I got to the store, it was after 5. Then I spent about an hour there, if not more, as my sister added on to the first simple and short list she sent me. Then as I'm leaving the store, finally, my phone dies as I'm about to see who she sent to pick me up. We already agreed that she was going to get an Uber or Lyft to take me home since I was carrying 2 and half dozen eggs. 😁

Got home, heated up the food I made yesterday after we put up most of the food and then sat down to eat before she greased my hair. I washed it late last night.

That reminds me. Oddly. I had to take an Uber to work today. I got up and down to the bus stop in time today. But nothing showed. I waited as long as I could before calling for a car.

So now I'm on line at 11:10 pm because I go in to work for 3 pm tomorrow.

Well, numb feet and toes aside, I'm able to go up stairs better now. So one notch for me outside of the weight loss.

Oh, I got my pay card back a day or so ago. I still have to report my missing cards to the police. I half wish that when I do, they already have them in evidence waiting for me to claim thing, but I also know this is wishful thinking.

Ok, going now. Later. 

July 10, 2017

Oh yeah..

Just realized I lost my NJ none driving ID too. Have to see about getting a new one this week.

Also a Starbucks card. No clue how much money I had on it. Maybe a Dunking Donut card too. Amount also unknown. 😐

Got to go. Work is starting.

July 08, 2017

Friday... What about Friday?

1 - I woke up to my having my cycle.

2 - I got my umbrella for the rain, but I needed my boots.

3 - I stood in a downpour that belonged in India as I waited for over 30 mins for the bus to take me to work after I managed to get a veggie sandwich for breakfast and lunch.

3.5 - Half way through the downpour my umbrella started to leaked onto me and my shoes were soaked all the way through. Most of my skirt got wet too and I was cutting it close to making it on time. When I got to work, I didn't get too dry off, but my you couldn't tell that my shirt was wet and my skirt had dried enough that no one said anything about and my shoes escaped notice.

4 - Wore my hand brace during work because my hand/arm was acting up.

5 - My boss was not happy when he found me not having the girl I work with helping me with the doors. But honestly, it wasn't something I could have prevented other than telling on her. I have asked her in the past to help with the doors. Anyone that has been in there I have asked to help me.

I won't get into details since this is partly security for the store, but when I have asked her, and I have asked her more than once and more than twice, she has said that she is too busy to help me. She has to fold. And I get that, so I try not to ask too often, but she wouldn't help so I stopped asking. When anyone else is there, they help when I ask.

5.5 - My boss heard over the walkie that the line was long for the fitting room and threatened me, mostly me, with what would happen if he came out there and I wasn't doing every single thing that he wanted, including having the girl help.

My problem is, he doesn't do what he wants me to do. He wants... I caught myself there. I have to do, about 5 things at the same time, while he mostly does 2 when he shows up and then grins as if to say that is how it's done, or questions why I'm not faster. I could be faster if I didn't have to do a few things, but I have reworked how I did one or two things to try and make the turn around faster, but I still have to do all the things that he wants me to do.

I see the reason for what he wants me to, I do get it, but to move the line along and have it look on the outside that we are 'working' most of the other people that work in the fitting room don't do everything I do. So much so, that a return customer asked if something had changed since he didn't see the other person do what I did.

6 - The only good uptick, is that my boss talked later when stopped to bag some trash that he had asked me to get someone to remove. I told him that I told the person and that they were coming after they took care of something else. He said that he would do it himself, and he ended up breaking the bag and making a mess and we ended up having a decent laugh and I got to ask him about doing something to fix a few physical things in the fitting room. He told me to talk to Robin since she was mostly in charge of that.

In that vain, the girl started to help now. Reluctantly, but at least she can't blame me for any of it. She knew. I told her. She was the one that refused to help.

7 - I was just told, over the walkie that it was time for me to leave. But I was helping a girl into a room and I was thinking that I had to find out who was going to come take over since no one had shown up yet. I was about to bend to pick up something when she closed the door on my finger. I remember looking at my finger as the hinge closed in on it. I screamed. The girl came back out and I remember her, but I can't recall what she said. I was just absorbed in the pain. I felt other people around me, as I held my finger and tried not to cry as I just processed the pain. I only moved when I heard someone say that I should put something cold on it. So I went into the back and tried to find something in the freezer. There was nothing, so I bent in half and laid my head on the fridge as now actively fought crying from the pain.

Outside of Robin and Joice, I don't know who else was there. Robin asked me a question and when I stayed quite, Joice told her that I couldn't talk yet and she was right. Somehow she got me cold, kinda, bottle of water. I don't know the order, but around that time I told Robin what happened. I was proud that I held it in and didn't cry at all.

I was asked by someone when my shift ended, it might have been my boss or Robin. I don't know. They asked if I wanted to go to the hospital. I tried to move my finger and it moved without pain, so I said no, it's moving. I was fine. Joice then said the same thing. If I could move it, it wasn't broken.

So I went back out signed back in my key and before I could leave, I the lady was leaving the fitting room and said she was sorry again and asked how it was. I half lied. I said I was fine, but I think I also said that it might change colours later.

I checked back in my walkie and then left. Oh, the finger injury is on my hand with the brace. Yes, my hand the finger still hurt.

8 - I get off the bus over an hour later by Rite Aid because my sister called me to let me know that she got her payday wrong and couldn't order 'feminine' products for me so I had to go and get them myself. Fine. I half wanted to go anyway to get some more body soap.

I got a few extra things but couldn't pay for any of it. My stack of cards was gone. I had like a money clip of my cards. After turning over my bag three times and checking my pockets, I realized I lost my pay card from work on the bus. How do I know what? The extra bottle of water that I had used as a cold press wasn't sitting well in my bag and it fell out of my bag. It hit the girl in front of me and I asked if I could have it back and didn't look down to see if anything had fallen out. Of course, now it's like 'how could I have not looked', but between feeling bad from my crushed finger, and what my cycle was doing to me and holding on to the new umbrella and plunger that I bought in Bed, Bath & Beyound I didn't think to look for anything else.

8.5 - That lead to me first fuming to my sister that this is one of the worst days of my life. I then stood for almost an hour for the next 24 bus to show up. She almost didn't stop for me. And since it was so full, I put off asking her about being able to contact the other bus that might have been in front of her. But just as I was about to ask her once the bus was nearing empty, the B version of the bus showed up along side and I asked her if I could get on that one. They had different end points. She called the bus ahead of her and had her wait for me. Which turned out to be perfect timing since she turned away from the bus I was on a block later.

I thought that was good luck for me, now I just hoped that I was able to find the depot or garage at the end and that the driver found them and turned them into lost and found. But the last stop was a just stop on the street and the driver didn't have a way of knowing who the last B bus driver was or how to find out or how to contact them. She gave me a number, to the bus company, they were a subcontractor that worked for NJ Transit. Great.

No one answered. It was after 9 pm now. So that was it. My health insurance card was gone that I just got last week. My pay card was gone. My metro card was gone with about $12 if not $16 on it.  My employee discount card is gone. My Plenti card for Rite Aid is gone along with at least two single zone bus tickets with transfers, and two or so other things that I hope aren't that important since I don't remember what they are.

At least I had called up my card and froze my account, in hopes of getting back my card. But now that I mostly convinced that it was gone, I knew I had to call and officially report it missing and get a new one.

9 - So now I'm in Orange and had to get home. Fortunately, A bus showed up that said it was going to Penn Station. Then I waited 25 mins for the 39 bus to take me home. Then I walked down hill after 10 pm for about 6 blocks to get home while carrying the new items I had in the big bag, my hand in a brace, throbbing finger and pain meds wearing off. Then I had to contend with making it to the bathroom before I wet myself. I made it after rushing up the stairs with legs/knees that I'm teaching how to go up and down stairs again with the pain that I can't seem to get away from yet.

10 - I sat on my bed with half melted ice cream, because the plug felt out for the freezer and one of the cones that I had gotten from Cold Stone the day before. Then I cracked open a big can of party nuts that I had gotten at B.B. & B. also. I heard my iPad pinging off and decided to look at it like 5 mins later.

I then read something that put a smile on my face and that is what I will leave you with.

"you once asked me, in 2014 


But what is it for btw? 

My stories?
My fractals? 
My photos? 

Or something else with my name on it?"

and i just wanna tell you
that although its been 3 long and hard years, that through all 3 your art has just continued to get better and better. I can tell that you dont really visit this site so often anymore, but every single thing that you've ,made has a certain quality to it. Every piece of art in your gallery has contained beauty, every piece of art, every story, and every photo. you dont get the recognition you deserve at all and im just here to tell you that you definitely deserve it. your art is amazing.

a brown kid?"