I woke up from barely sleeping. I couldn't even eat all of my breakfast. I still felt like I was going to be punished, even though the talk was over with, and he said that we could move on. But hearing him say that he was going to think about this over the weekend makes me think that he will change his mind and still fire me on Wednesday when I came back to work.
I didn't have much to do at work, and my sister made sure that I got to work early. I filled out the bi-weekly report that I was working on turning in since the 13, I just missed the end of the two weeks. I finished it up and e-mailed it to him. When I was filling out the first week from the notes I had, I was starting to feel good about myself. I had done a lot that week. Then near the end of the last week when things started to go wrong, all the pain and worry came back, and I ask myself why didn't I know? Why didn't it hit me that I was doing this? I've come up with a lot of answers, but non that would make my boss less angry with me.
AM showed up to see how I was doing and talked a little bit. She was only here for 10 mins maybe. She had to do something but we were meeting at 7 for popcorn. It was her way of trying to cheer me up , or to help me breath again. Well I finished up the report and sent it in with a note saying that I hadn't realized that two weeks had gone by already.
Then M the girl at the front desk asked to leave early to take her kid to a friend's birthday party. I said that it was ok, I didn't want to look all depressed around her anyway. Then I worked on organizing some information that I got about our teachers and what classes they taught. I then placed some of them in the data base that I was making for teaching faculty, and made some new profile pages for those that didn't have one yet.
I had sent a letter to R, My boss, Friday saying that I think I was finished with the IT department site, but I needed to have it looked over and asked for what was needed to be added or changed. I kept checking my mail, but I haven't gotten and answer back from him yet. It's not that out of character for me to not get an answer over the weekend, but I think that he's either getting information to send to me, putting it off since it's the weekend, or putting me off altogether because of what I did, and he'll deal with it on Monday, if not later that week.
Just before I went to the front desk to cover it and do some work on the data base, I remembered the tape for Dr. M, and went to get a VCR from one of the rooms. I hadn't gotten one back yet. I was going to sit there and cut it as it was being feed into the computer, but I was called away by students, so I just left it to be record as a whole and I would cut it up later.
I had to turn on the display to see where on the film that the Dr wanted me to cut and paste, and it wasn't showing me on the VCR itself. I hope she doesn't mind. If she does, I'll just have to re-do it again. I finished it up and thought that I did a good job considering the times she gave me and the times I got were abit off. I then went back the front desk while it was stitching together the pieces that I gave it.
AM showed up when I was looking though my desk for an old teacher listing to see if it had the information on it that I wanted that was now missing from the new listing. I didn't find it, then we went to pop the pop corn. While we were out there we heard fire works. I don't know who was celebrating what. I thought that it might be the Labour party. They won the election earlier that week.
We sat outside and ate the popcorn and just talked about anything but work and vets and computers. We talked about Asian movies mostly. I helped her with a title of a movie, and I told her that I was going to show her the trailer for this other movie that she hadn't heard of.
We were gone for almost and hour, short 15 mins, it didn't seem that long to me, but then she got me to stop worrying for a bit. I found her some trailers to watch, and I even got to see the new Blade 3 movie trailer. I had to tell her to be quite when she had the head phones on, she was being a bit loud. Then we did a little wallpaper hunting, and she helped me match a few teachers to the classes they taught.
Then about an hour before closing she left, and I got back to the data base. I checked my mail again. Still nothing. Closed up when it came time, and put the VCR back in room 2 before I left.
I was feeling a little bit better, by the time I got home. I was even ready to go to sleep at midnight, but then Nika started to have ear pains again. Early this year, Nika was in the hospital and they said that she had Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis, and it seems that she may also have chronic ear infections also. Her ear hurt, as well as some of her joints. We weren't ready to have her in the hospital again, but soon the crying had my sister taking her to the Emergency Room. I called a head to see how many people where there so we would at least know how long the wait was going to be. They take forever to get to people waiting in the ER.
The nurse said that there were a good amount of people there, I asked again how many were there, she said that she wouldn't know how many people would be when I got there. I told her that I just lived down the street, and I just wanted to know how many people where there? I just got a good amount. So I said thank you and hung up. My sister didn't like the answer either, since a good amount to one person could be 4 or 10 to someone else. Anyway, she carried Nika all the way up the hospital and I told her when she was leaving that I was would stay up until 3 waiting for them. She called around 2 and asked for some information on some medicine that Nika had gotten and we still had the box for. Then she came home a little before 3. She told me that they were the only ones there when they got there around 1, but they remembered her and it seemed to her that they didn't bother with her for 30 mins.
Anyway, they didn't have anything to give her. The only kind of meds that they had to give her, she had a reaction to. So she got a script I think, and when she got home, Jhodie gave her maybe double the set about of her pain meds that she was giving her before. They told her what other meds for pain she could get for her, and I think that was about it. We were both tried and ended up going to bed at 3 am.
October 31, 2004
October 30, 2004
My Life Almost Ended
To make a long story short, I forgot about a really big rule, broke it, and was found out in a very dumb way, during the worst week of the year.
My boss almost fired me. That was yesterday. It was at 3pm.
I still can't breath right, and last night I couldn't sleep.
So now I'm doing things with ok's, I finished what I started with my bi-weekly reports which I haven't done in like 8 months, but tried to start back up before this all happened.
I just feel scared right now. I shouldn't. He said that he could movie on past this. I just have to regain the respect he had for me. Of course I have to sign some letter of reprimand that he is putting in my file next week.
But I'm still scared, and I feel stupid. I can't believe that it never dawned on me that I was breaking this rule.
My boss almost fired me. That was yesterday. It was at 3pm.
I still can't breath right, and last night I couldn't sleep.
So now I'm doing things with ok's, I finished what I started with my bi-weekly reports which I haven't done in like 8 months, but tried to start back up before this all happened.
I just feel scared right now. I shouldn't. He said that he could movie on past this. I just have to regain the respect he had for me. Of course I have to sign some letter of reprimand that he is putting in my file next week.
But I'm still scared, and I feel stupid. I can't believe that it never dawned on me that I was breaking this rule.
October 29, 2004
I'm Not Happy!
In one afternoon I've lost my torrent downloading ability, which also rendered my "hello" program worthless, and just when I realized that I can't use it at home due to the very bad connection that they sell me under the name of "Cable".
The thing crawls like I'm working off of dial up. Which is why I did my torrent downloading at school.
The guy who was in charge of setting up our wireless network, is now in control of the rest of the network, and has closed all un-needed ports on the network for safety reasons.
Close one set of ports and he shut down my torrent manager. Shut down another set, and there went my "hello" program. The only thing is I can't ask to have those ports reopened, because they aren't work related things. So now I'm left with about 5 or 8 gigs worth of incomplete anime. What a waste. I'll have to go erease them tomorrow. I just couldn't do it today.
Bumped into my boss from NJ and someone that he brought with him. The only good thing that I heard, or remember hearing (in their defense), was that I had a very bright smile.
I tried to show off my web work to them, while they waited for Ron, and all I get is that "I have a great smile". I'm hoping that's because they don't know much about websites, or they were more interested in content, then layout and design. I am layout and design. Oh well.
Then Ron came back to go with them, and he told me not to get into trouble. I'm not asking him back for my music until next week.
Today I just worked on the LRC's/IT department part of the webpage. No one noticed me much today, which is normally fine by me, but not while I'm trying to get their attention. :(
Well one more day looking pretty for higher up people then I wear something a bit more soft on the weekend.
I haven't jumped yesterday's blog, it's saved as a draft. I'll finish it up and post it tomorrow. I'm off to bed now.
$100 and I can't go faster than "221.3 kilobits per second". That is a bit better than what I use to get, but it's like half the speed a cable modem is suppose to give you.
Check out this site to see how fast your connection is. It's the one I use the most.
Well, it's starting to rain, hope it's around after my spell check is up to help put me to sleep.
See ya.
The thing crawls like I'm working off of dial up. Which is why I did my torrent downloading at school.
The guy who was in charge of setting up our wireless network, is now in control of the rest of the network, and has closed all un-needed ports on the network for safety reasons.
Close one set of ports and he shut down my torrent manager. Shut down another set, and there went my "hello" program. The only thing is I can't ask to have those ports reopened, because they aren't work related things. So now I'm left with about 5 or 8 gigs worth of incomplete anime. What a waste. I'll have to go erease them tomorrow. I just couldn't do it today.
Bumped into my boss from NJ and someone that he brought with him. The only good thing that I heard, or remember hearing (in their defense), was that I had a very bright smile.
I tried to show off my web work to them, while they waited for Ron, and all I get is that "I have a great smile". I'm hoping that's because they don't know much about websites, or they were more interested in content, then layout and design. I am layout and design. Oh well.
Then Ron came back to go with them, and he told me not to get into trouble. I'm not asking him back for my music until next week.
Today I just worked on the LRC's/IT department part of the webpage. No one noticed me much today, which is normally fine by me, but not while I'm trying to get their attention. :(
Well one more day looking pretty for higher up people then I wear something a bit more soft on the weekend.
I haven't jumped yesterday's blog, it's saved as a draft. I'll finish it up and post it tomorrow. I'm off to bed now.
$100 and I can't go faster than "221.3 kilobits per second". That is a bit better than what I use to get, but it's like half the speed a cable modem is suppose to give you.
Check out this site to see how fast your connection is. It's the one I use the most.
Well, it's starting to rain, hope it's around after my spell check is up to help put me to sleep.
See ya.
October 26, 2004
Saturday.
Well it felt like Saturday.
All that activity was tiring and confused the day. Every now and again we had to remind ourselves that it was Tuesday.
For starters, I think we cleaned. Secondly, we took Nika out on her bike to get her peddling better. We were only suppose to go around the block. We went down the block, then took a left, and went past the block's end, walked into an empty and over grown lot to see some watermelon. They weren't as big as I expected. My sister, who took me there, said that she thought that they would be bigger after all the rain we had gotten. Then we took another left and in two blocks ended up at Nika's school.
This is where Jhodie decided to pick some young gooseberry plants to take home. Then I carried Nika's bike as we crossed two streets to go into the graveyard. This wasn't for Nika to practice riding her bike. We were in here to pick some plants for our yard or get some more seeds for some yelllow flowers. I liked some crawling purple flowers, but we didn't pick any. On our way out of the cemetery, Nika held my skirt as we walked along a very low wall. We took our time on this little walk, by the time we got back we were gone for an hour.
Then we all went down for a nap. We woke up sometime around 4pm I think. We were going back out again, one without her bike, and not as far as the deep water pier as we had said yesterday. So we decided to go down to the bay by this inlet next to Fisherman's Wharf. You can't go there all the time, but today the water was very clear and not rough at all.
I tried to stay out of the water as much as I could, but soon Nika came over to throw water on me. I did not come dressed for the beach. I have nothing to wear to the beach. So in my jeans I sat down in the surf and held on to Nika every now and again when she wasn't dumping wet sand unto Jhoide. There was a cruise ship in and we watched it leave before we started getting ready to leave. We were there until the sun was almost set, then we started to wash off. Both of us were wearing jeans. So we had to dump buckets of water down our pants to get most of the sand out. Then we hiked back up to the main road, then walked across the street to a water pipe to wash off the sand from our feet and sandals.
Then in the dark we slowly walked back home. I fell asleep waiting for my turn to use the shower.
That was my day.
All that activity was tiring and confused the day. Every now and again we had to remind ourselves that it was Tuesday.
For starters, I think we cleaned. Secondly, we took Nika out on her bike to get her peddling better. We were only suppose to go around the block. We went down the block, then took a left, and went past the block's end, walked into an empty and over grown lot to see some watermelon. They weren't as big as I expected. My sister, who took me there, said that she thought that they would be bigger after all the rain we had gotten. Then we took another left and in two blocks ended up at Nika's school.
This is where Jhodie decided to pick some young gooseberry plants to take home. Then I carried Nika's bike as we crossed two streets to go into the graveyard. This wasn't for Nika to practice riding her bike. We were in here to pick some plants for our yard or get some more seeds for some yelllow flowers. I liked some crawling purple flowers, but we didn't pick any. On our way out of the cemetery, Nika held my skirt as we walked along a very low wall. We took our time on this little walk, by the time we got back we were gone for an hour.
Then we all went down for a nap. We woke up sometime around 4pm I think. We were going back out again, one without her bike, and not as far as the deep water pier as we had said yesterday. So we decided to go down to the bay by this inlet next to Fisherman's Wharf. You can't go there all the time, but today the water was very clear and not rough at all.
I tried to stay out of the water as much as I could, but soon Nika came over to throw water on me. I did not come dressed for the beach. I have nothing to wear to the beach. So in my jeans I sat down in the surf and held on to Nika every now and again when she wasn't dumping wet sand unto Jhoide. There was a cruise ship in and we watched it leave before we started getting ready to leave. We were there until the sun was almost set, then we started to wash off. Both of us were wearing jeans. So we had to dump buckets of water down our pants to get most of the sand out. Then we hiked back up to the main road, then walked across the street to a water pipe to wash off the sand from our feet and sandals.
Then in the dark we slowly walked back home. I fell asleep waiting for my turn to use the shower.
That was my day.
Blanket Hunting.
Ok, work up at 9:30 or so this morning.
Came outside, and my sister told me something about going out. Walked back into my room, got dressed, walked out and was told that my hair needed combing. Well I knew that. I washed it yesterday. It needed greasing and combing out. I came out looking for the afro pick.
Getting dress took me like 2 mins, combing my hair took 20, and that is without really making a style. Today I just did an afro.
Then we left sometime around 10:30.
Things to do in town.
1. My sister had to change the pounds that we got from our uncle to EC so we could use it.
2. Find a new blanket for Nika.
3. *maybe* get some fabric.
Took a bus down, went to the first baby store, and found one blanket, but we didn't think that Nika would have liked it. I was had light brown squares in it. Brown isn't one of the colours that Nika likes. She likes yellow, green, and blue. It was nice and soft, and if we couldn't find one we liked better somewhere else, we would come back for it.
We then checked two banks to see how long the lines were to see if Jhoide (my sister) could get the money changed. The ones that we looked in were full so we went somewhere else to look for the blanket.
We stopped off at this place called "best for less" and I told her that they didn't have any blankets. She didn't believe me. So we spent about 7 mins looking though the store. It's a small store. We then went back the way we came to go to the fabric stores. We went to the first one on Liverpool Row, we looked at what they had, and my sister actually asked if they had fleece fabric. They didn't even know what that was, but we did see some that we wanted to make some skirts out of.
So on to the next fabric store. Nope, next baby store, the fabric store was closed. At the baby store we found a blanket for Nika. It cost me $36. I then ended up throwing on a new pair of socks for Nika in there too. That was another $7 for the pair. Then we went my sister's bank to get the money changed. That bank had a short line so we went in, then come out 30 mins later. Since it was getting late and Jhodie wanted to get some food from the new snacket that we found. She wanted to get there in time before they sold out what she wanted. On our way back we stopped off at the super market, don't know why, but she saw that they had yogurt on sale. 99 cents each of three flavors that close to expiring. We took them thinking that we were going to eat them after our lunch. We did see the oddest thing while we were in the super market. They covered all the alcohol. We found out later that it was to kinda make sure that the voters were sober. Today was voting day.
We caught a bus and got there just before 1pm and the place was full. I was starting to think that we weren't going to get a chicken plate now. So Jhoide sat and waited her turn to order. We waited and waited, then we got the last two plates, :) and we even got some passion fruit drink too. We thought that they had ran out of that too, but she had another bottle.
We got home, eat lunch, I checked e-mail, then we took a nap. I then woke back up 30 mins later to get Jhodie up so she could go pick up Nika from school. A few hours later I was laying out some 4x4 lengths of wood for Nika to practice balancing on. Then I washed out a very dirty trash can and scrubbed it down with disinfectant. Then when I was clean again, I kinda helped with dinner. Afterwards she wish hadn't asked. *oops* At least what I made was eventually edible.
Other than that, nothing much. Watched jeopardy, that guy is still there. Watched re-runs of Star Gate : SG1, then CSI : Mimi, then How Clean Is Your House. Then I went to see if G4 was going to show R.O.D. the TV. They did! :) .. But it wasn't a new one. :( Ok.. time to check my mail again. Someone actually wrote me, an online friend actually wrote me. I told me him about this blog thing in case he didn't my e-mail that I sent out a few weeks ago telling my friends about it.
He wanted to talk with me. He asked why I haven't been on line for so long. Well just about no one is on line for me to talk to if I do find the time to go on line, so I don't really turn it on anymore.
I still have that cough. I'm getting really tired of it now. It should be gone by now. I'm going to have to wait until Thursday to get meds if I still have it then. I can't get any tomorrow, it's a holiday, and I go to work early on Wednesday, so it's Thursday.
So that's it. I'll drink some water to keep my throat from hurting, then hopefully get to bed before 3am. I have to get up for a long walk tomorrow. We are taking Nika, she might get to go in the water at the beach we are passing . Her school is closed for the holiday too.
See ya.
Came outside, and my sister told me something about going out. Walked back into my room, got dressed, walked out and was told that my hair needed combing. Well I knew that. I washed it yesterday. It needed greasing and combing out. I came out looking for the afro pick.
Getting dress took me like 2 mins, combing my hair took 20, and that is without really making a style. Today I just did an afro.
Then we left sometime around 10:30.
Things to do in town.
1. My sister had to change the pounds that we got from our uncle to EC so we could use it.
2. Find a new blanket for Nika.
3. *maybe* get some fabric.
Took a bus down, went to the first baby store, and found one blanket, but we didn't think that Nika would have liked it. I was had light brown squares in it. Brown isn't one of the colours that Nika likes. She likes yellow, green, and blue. It was nice and soft, and if we couldn't find one we liked better somewhere else, we would come back for it.
We then checked two banks to see how long the lines were to see if Jhoide (my sister) could get the money changed. The ones that we looked in were full so we went somewhere else to look for the blanket.
We stopped off at this place called "best for less" and I told her that they didn't have any blankets. She didn't believe me. So we spent about 7 mins looking though the store. It's a small store. We then went back the way we came to go to the fabric stores. We went to the first one on Liverpool Row, we looked at what they had, and my sister actually asked if they had fleece fabric. They didn't even know what that was, but we did see some that we wanted to make some skirts out of.
So on to the next fabric store. Nope, next baby store, the fabric store was closed. At the baby store we found a blanket for Nika. It cost me $36. I then ended up throwing on a new pair of socks for Nika in there too. That was another $7 for the pair. Then we went my sister's bank to get the money changed. That bank had a short line so we went in, then come out 30 mins later. Since it was getting late and Jhodie wanted to get some food from the new snacket that we found. She wanted to get there in time before they sold out what she wanted. On our way back we stopped off at the super market, don't know why, but she saw that they had yogurt on sale. 99 cents each of three flavors that close to expiring. We took them thinking that we were going to eat them after our lunch. We did see the oddest thing while we were in the super market. They covered all the alcohol. We found out later that it was to kinda make sure that the voters were sober. Today was voting day.
We caught a bus and got there just before 1pm and the place was full. I was starting to think that we weren't going to get a chicken plate now. So Jhoide sat and waited her turn to order. We waited and waited, then we got the last two plates, :) and we even got some passion fruit drink too. We thought that they had ran out of that too, but she had another bottle.
We got home, eat lunch, I checked e-mail, then we took a nap. I then woke back up 30 mins later to get Jhodie up so she could go pick up Nika from school. A few hours later I was laying out some 4x4 lengths of wood for Nika to practice balancing on. Then I washed out a very dirty trash can and scrubbed it down with disinfectant. Then when I was clean again, I kinda helped with dinner. Afterwards she wish hadn't asked. *oops* At least what I made was eventually edible.
Other than that, nothing much. Watched jeopardy, that guy is still there. Watched re-runs of Star Gate : SG1, then CSI : Mimi, then How Clean Is Your House. Then I went to see if G4 was going to show R.O.D. the TV. They did! :) .. But it wasn't a new one. :( Ok.. time to check my mail again. Someone actually wrote me, an online friend actually wrote me. I told me him about this blog thing in case he didn't my e-mail that I sent out a few weeks ago telling my friends about it.
He wanted to talk with me. He asked why I haven't been on line for so long. Well just about no one is on line for me to talk to if I do find the time to go on line, so I don't really turn it on anymore.
I still have that cough. I'm getting really tired of it now. It should be gone by now. I'm going to have to wait until Thursday to get meds if I still have it then. I can't get any tomorrow, it's a holiday, and I go to work early on Wednesday, so it's Thursday.
So that's it. I'll drink some water to keep my throat from hurting, then hopefully get to bed before 3am. I have to get up for a long walk tomorrow. We are taking Nika, she might get to go in the water at the beach we are passing . Her school is closed for the holiday too.
See ya.
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